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so my li ttle freakout was apparently a week ago. anyway, good news have lost 5-7 lbs since... I dunno when. At least since I've been back. I feel like I look a little bit different but not too much. I've been running but really cut back a lot on my calories. eating much less but also eating sometimes when I'm not hungry and know I should. I don't want to mess up my metabolism again. supposed to go to DMB concert again and my main concern there is eating and loooots of drinking..:S trying to find solutions.
only 15 days until i'm back in germany... crazy! i think i really need to stay away from bread!! I miss david. I hope he misses me. i'm sorta freaking out about that because i've been single for almost two years now and...its just hard going from doing whatever you want to having a person in mind. i've been asked out on a couple of dates but its strange... david ISNT my boyfriend. i'm pretty positive i would like him to be. so i'm single... but no interested in dates. BUT if he is hooking up/dating... i want to be too... i dont want to be limiting myself to him, if hes not doing the same. its hard to bring up the subject. i guess it doesnt really matter, being single i can do what i want but it makes me feel guilty and really I'm not interested! which is a new feeling for me. in the almost two years i didnt find anyone that I was really truely interested in but I also did object to dating...and now i'm not so interested in that either... hmmm
dadT might also be coming up soon crazy! saw grandma yesterday. she gave me her star sapphire ring. i love it so much! i'm thankful and happy she remembered. saw amy on the last sunday too and met little lacey. shes such a good sweet baby :)
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only 15 days until i'm back in germany... crazy! i think i really need to stay away from bread!! I miss david. I hope he misses me. i'm sorta freaking out about that because i've been single for almost two years now and...its just hard going from doing whatever you want to having a person in mind. i've been asked out on a couple of dates but its strange... david ISNT my boyfriend. i'm pretty positive i would like him to be. so i'm single... but no interested in dates. BUT if he is hooking up/dating... i want to be too... i dont want to be limiting myself to him, if hes not doing the same. its hard to bring up the subject. i guess it doesnt really matter, being single i can do what i want but it makes me feel guilty and really I'm not interested! which is a new feeling for me. in the almost two years i didnt find anyone that I was really truely interested in but I also did object to dating...and now i'm not so interested in that either... hmmm
dadT might also be coming up soon crazy! saw grandma yesterday. she gave me her star sapphire ring. i love it so much! i'm thankful and happy she remembered. saw amy on the last sunday too and met little lacey. shes such a good sweet baby :)
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