Where is my tragic emotion?
Things have slightly boiled over...it's still very bad...but not as bad as it could have been.
It seems my real emotions have surfaced...(didn't think they were so obvious...) I regret now...having to keep them so hidden...I guess rage was all I needed to see it.
Under guidance from friends...I've pretty much admitted to someone-someone that hurt me-how I really felt.
My trust has been lost for now...but maybe it will regain. I know some people see this as a flaw- others don't...like Shawn said-everyone is different...and will not have the same judgement...or something similar to that.
I am hurt-and I do feel a lot of abhorence...for someone...that each time I think about them-I get very frustrated and angry...
If anyone catches me on AIM...I might not say much about it...mainly because it hurts too much for me to write out compared to me actually saying it in "person". Phone or in-person wise...
Brittany and Daniel- I will get to you sometime...via car attack. Maybe with both of you present-I know Brittany doesn't read this but atleast Daniel does. Shawn knows already and helped quite a bit-besides his Michael Jackson song that he kept singing...
Such a hard kick in the face that the incident was-broken heart...but I guess that was one of the only way-like i've said somewhere-that i'd see...that true, TRUE emotion...
Am I weak? To have something so tragic...show that I truly love someone?
I guess we'll see. Despite this ranting...I am not as bad as I was...i'm actually feeling better...I let so-and-so know how I really felt-so I guess it wasn't that bad. My trust has to be earned back 10 fold...do you think it can be done?
Thank you for those who have shown concern. I love you-don't forget that. Take care...i'll scrawl more later...i'm tired...
It seems my real emotions have surfaced...(didn't think they were so obvious...) I regret now...having to keep them so hidden...I guess rage was all I needed to see it.
Under guidance from friends...I've pretty much admitted to someone-someone that hurt me-how I really felt.
My trust has been lost for now...but maybe it will regain. I know some people see this as a flaw- others don't...like Shawn said-everyone is different...and will not have the same judgement...or something similar to that.
I am hurt-and I do feel a lot of abhorence...for someone...that each time I think about them-I get very frustrated and angry...
If anyone catches me on AIM...I might not say much about it...mainly because it hurts too much for me to write out compared to me actually saying it in "person". Phone or in-person wise...
Brittany and Daniel- I will get to you sometime...via car attack. Maybe with both of you present-I know Brittany doesn't read this but atleast Daniel does. Shawn knows already and helped quite a bit-besides his Michael Jackson song that he kept singing...
Such a hard kick in the face that the incident was-broken heart...but I guess that was one of the only way-like i've said somewhere-that i'd see...that true, TRUE emotion...
Am I weak? To have something so tragic...show that I truly love someone?
I guess we'll see. Despite this ranting...I am not as bad as I was...i'm actually feeling better...I let so-and-so know how I really felt-so I guess it wasn't that bad. My trust has to be earned back 10 fold...do you think it can be done?
Thank you for those who have shown concern. I love you-don't forget that. Take care...i'll scrawl more later...i'm tired...