teetering...but now it subsides.
Today...today was very eventful.
Everything...well...I hung out with Daniel a lot today- talked with him about the situation...we were going to talk with Brittany-but she wasn't home...but anyway-yeah. I got off work early if you were wondering...
TJ had snagged some tickets for the movie "Hero". He got one for Daniel as well-so we all watched it. That movie made me realize many things...I mean-many songs today did too...but that movie was the topper. It's underlying emotion and meaning...made me realize many things...
Enough things for me to forgive Aby. In person no less. I hugged her...I told her...I told her I forgave her...it took a lot for me to do that-but like I said...as silly as it was-that movie really knocked some sense into me. Roman and TJ...well...there is still a lot of hurt-they're will always be a lot of hurt...but they did shake hands...and were very civil with each other. We all were...almost like before all this happened...of course Aby was still very childish compared to the rest of us in this situation...and Roman and Aby thanked me a lot for my forgiveness. Roman was glad...he said he wasn't expecting such...but it was done.
All in all...everything-despite that still underlying feeling-has been somewhat subsided...we all agreed it would take along time to fully get over all this...and well, frankly, that's a given...but there was forgiveness on both partys accounts...and truly (if you believe or not) I felt as if God was watching over me again-over everyone. Roman of course had a different view and such...but really...it has shown a lot of character and a lot of maturity to try and get over this.
I am proud of myself. I really, truly am.
I'm happy...confused-but happy. And that's a good sign...
Talking about it all and admitting and such in person...was much better then anything. Yes...there was crying and such...but it helped. It really did.
Much love to all of you.
Everything...well...I hung out with Daniel a lot today- talked with him about the situation...we were going to talk with Brittany-but she wasn't home...but anyway-yeah. I got off work early if you were wondering...
TJ had snagged some tickets for the movie "Hero". He got one for Daniel as well-so we all watched it. That movie made me realize many things...I mean-many songs today did too...but that movie was the topper. It's underlying emotion and meaning...made me realize many things...
Enough things for me to forgive Aby. In person no less. I hugged her...I told her...I told her I forgave her...it took a lot for me to do that-but like I said...as silly as it was-that movie really knocked some sense into me. Roman and TJ...well...there is still a lot of hurt-they're will always be a lot of hurt...but they did shake hands...and were very civil with each other. We all were...almost like before all this happened...of course Aby was still very childish compared to the rest of us in this situation...and Roman and Aby thanked me a lot for my forgiveness. Roman was glad...he said he wasn't expecting such...but it was done.
All in all...everything-despite that still underlying feeling-has been somewhat subsided...we all agreed it would take along time to fully get over all this...and well, frankly, that's a given...but there was forgiveness on both partys accounts...and truly (if you believe or not) I felt as if God was watching over me again-over everyone. Roman of course had a different view and such...but really...it has shown a lot of character and a lot of maturity to try and get over this.
I am proud of myself. I really, truly am.
I'm happy...confused-but happy. And that's a good sign...
Talking about it all and admitting and such in person...was much better then anything. Yes...there was crying and such...but it helped. It really did.
Much love to all of you.