Summer has begun
There is just so many things to talk about I'm not even certain where to begin... Well lets start from the night of arrival I suppose Arrival of summer that is! My very best friend poor guy doesn't get in to Reston until like 2 in the AM but of course I was there to greet him when he was back along with the other believers of the queen. Lake Anne is far scarier at night when getting high behind a pool. It was worth it though because there are lots of sights and sounds there to enjoy. I mean that scary metal man is far more hilarious to look at when compromised. We hung out probably the latest I ever have and then went home and luckily slept it all off. The next evening I wasn't as lucky to get away with it. We go out to the Queens territory and give our offerings to her. Hot boxing a tent was intense. Of course I got completely set upon that one I thought it was going to be the kind of tent with polls to connect and string through and not until the last moment did it get revealed as a fold out tent. Man I cant believe I didn't see that coming!! We also created one of the best songs we have ever decided to improve with so many instruments. Another ridiculous feature to that extravaganza was that we had a melodica, drum, acoustic guitar, keyboard and electric guitar. I didn't get home that evening until like 3:30 in the morning. Work the next day sucked a lot. Then Thursday went out swing dancing that was a mixture. I was really excited to see the third addition to our swing dance but unfortunately had to relent that I knew less about the activity and let my friend teach. I realize though that my jealousy was slightly out of control that night or at least before they rejoined.. I mean for an hour they just went off somewhere else to practice kind of sucked to be thinking about that I don't quite trust them alone. Sucks right? Not complete paranoia though considering he had liked her and probably more than me first. But once we were all back together I felt better. Dancing was a lot of fun anyway and he looked so adorable when trying to dance. I have to admit I was jealous that I couldnt be the one to teach him for all that time but then he did dance with me quite a bit. Also swing dances are unique in that your expected and its tradition to dance with a lot of different people. Ironically I don't know but like to think that it really only bothered me because I couldnt see what they were doing and that he spent so much time with just one person. If he had danced with a wider variety of girls I don't think it would have bothered me that much. It just had to be with someone I knew he was already attracted to and for lengthy periods of unsupervised time... I defiantly had cooled down though when they rejoined us and then we went out to dinner afterward at the Hard Times. I'm still devastated that my favorite and currently only accessible to me pool hall has closed in Herndon. The chili at hard times though was pretty disgusting it was just the meat and you had to pay extra if you wanted kidney beans or any kind of vegetable included. To me thats not chili its like flavored sloppy joe with no bun. Every time I go to the dances I want to take lessons and get better. I'm not sure why I haven't gone ahead and tried but I guess without my friends to go with me I'm nervous about trying something that new. That and I don't know what age group to expect I certainly don't want to pay a lot of money and be stuck in dance class with all 30-50 year olds or older. Then Friday was pretty spectacular work went well enough but then going to go see the Hulk got a bit dramatic just because of scheduling and how long it took us to get out there I have never had to wait for someone so long just to come down and get going we didnt make it to the original showing but luckily everyone was okay with just seeing the one right after. Then we wandered around the mall. I did get a little ticked off because it was crowded and hard to hear my friends and so I got jealous and wanted to be included but everyone was diverging in their own directions. It was a little annoying that one of my friends decided to stay stuck to the guy I'm dating but whatever no harm no foul just hate to see people openly flirting with one another when one of them is my best friend and the other is the guy I'm dating. Of course instead of saying anything I brooded instead and let myself get in a crabby mood. Luckily the hulk was good enough to get me out of the funk. Also it helped that he seemed to understand once we were in the theater that I was, admittedly selfishly, annoyed for what I don't think he knows but he held my hand and joked with me and made me feel a bit better. The movie was far better than the last it had better restraint with famous phrases, better villains and started at a less cliche begging point. It did a quick recap of how he got to be the hulk in ways that really only those viewers who read or knew much about the hulk would appreciate and then talked about okay so now he's the hulk what next? It was pretty interesting and I found a new favorite actor to add to my list. I really need to get a handle on my jealousy issues though... I mean I don't think he's the type to cheat, ironically I don't have any claim to say he would be if he did something with another girl because he isn't technically my boyfriend... He's just a friend whom I am intimate with and go on dates with. I get the feeling though that I'm more into him than he is into me and thats always hard to deal with unrequited emotion. I find myself falling hard and our last date didn't help with that issue. On Saturday we went into DC and went to the art museum I haven't gone there in a long time. It was really nice and it was his first time at a museum like that so it was fun to play tour guide. Some of it was really good and parts of it were crap. It stirred my desire to paint though... I just get so deeply inspired by oil painting I really wanna learn how to do it well and paint my own canvas' I have the paint and I have the canvas but I don't want to ruin the paints because they are expensive and I'm worried about using them and then I don't even know. I guess the best way to learn almost anything is through trial and error right? Anyway then we shared this really well there's no better way to describe it but hot moment in one of the exhibits when we were alone and he came up behind me and wrapped his arms around my waist and kissed my neck hard. So anyway to spare anyone who would actually read this the other horny details it was just F***ing hot!!! Then we went down to china town and had dinner at a subway ha ha. I told him though that I didnt really care where we ate as long as we were together and as cheesy as it sounds I really meant it. I almost always feel that way about the guys I date but its nice to see that I feel the same way about him too..I cant believe I skipped this part but I suppose its all stream of consciousness that pours out onto these electronic entries. He and I shared a really emotionally connective moment while heading in to DC on the metro and I got to learn snippets about him that I didnt know before which was cool. Then we went back to his place and well had sex for 3 hours straight. Personal best really. Then we went out to Denny's for a late night snack and then came back and watched Avatar and then went to bed. I suppose thats one of the most exciting points is that he invited me to spend the night... It was a really nice experience to once again share a guys bed with him. I slept very peacefully or as best I could in a single with a guy who is over 6ft. I have to admit though that my feelings for him have grown ridiculously fast and then again Ive seen him far more often than I normally see guys I'm dating and he gets along with my friends and we connect on a friend level as well as on a romantic one so its unique. I haven't really successfully introduced guys I'm dating to friends and had them all get along before and ironically I didn't have to introduce anyone to anyone it was all done for me since I was introduced to him through a friend. Many obstacles lay in my way though; trying to balance my jealousy against my logic concerning my friends, trying to make sure things don't move too fast on my end in this, not forcing my feelings on him, if things go south trying to maintain a friendship so I don't end up alienated from another group like with the Derek fiasco and holding onto him and treasuring what time I spend with him while I can. I admit I'm paranoid though because I have never had so many things going right for me at once before. I'm waiting for the other shoe to drop something devastating to happen to make everything shatter apart...I mean work is going swimmingly although slowly I got signed of in surgery for everything but changing out the oxygen tank so I hope I will get opportunities to work in other departments soon I havent seen another nurse 1 have to spend so much time training in one field without advancing but then again some of the other nurses start off in well easier areas than surgery or have more experience than I do when they began their training. I know I shouldn't size myself up against anyone else and I should focus on just my accomplishments but its hard not to... Then my school work is getting neglected I will admit because my friends are around so I'm not devoting much time to studying but I'm still doing well anyway. There is also my mom and brother are getting along but to the point where its alienating me but I'm still happy and greatful that they are getting along. I am also overjoyed by the return of my friends for the summer.