Being Reminded of Weddings...
My work colleague recently got married and bought her wedding photos in today. She is Polish and went home for a month. We all looked at her album at the end of the day in the office. They were very nicely done and the best I'd seen for a long time. Usually people look like statues and so formal. There were smiles and laughing in most of these photos and everyone looked so natural.
One thing I noticed was how beautiful Kamila looked. Of course in our workplace everyone is dressed the same, in trousers and thick clothing because its so cold. It made me stop and think that even though I was dressed like most of the women in my work place I couldn't look as beautiful as they would, say on their wedding day.
Walking home I thought about her wedding. Every time I hear or look at photos of weddings I always wonder a lot. I was thinking of how happy it would be to have a day like that. Then I began to think how that situation wouldn't work for me. I became sad about that because I don't know how it would work for me. Then I started to play with the idea of being a bride instead of a groom. If being a groom didn't seem to make sense then maybe being a bride would. I kind of liked that idea, yet it worried me because I don't know how many people close to me would understand or accept me as a bride.