My miserable little solutions
Fun Fun fun, I'm finally updating, and I'm friken in school, so I'm like wicked on edge, I don't wanna get yelled at! YANNO what I mean?
Apparently
anywhoo,
Um, yes it is suppose to be art class, 80 friken minutes of it, instead, we are in the computer lab today becuase they are having a teachers meeting in the art room, how random is that, and now I'm stuck bored out of my mind in the comp lab, constantly making sure some freaky teacher I havn't even head yet isn't crouching over my shoulder.... ahhh tis life... oh and yep, i get to listen to my annoying frekin sister to, annouse all tthe things that pop up into her annoying little mind... and I wish there was some way I could just make her hate life, so she'd shut up, but whatever thats evil,
and yep, another comment on my "skinny-ness" OH WELL! I don't care, don't look your fat, I'm skinny, no ones perfect.... yep time for a save, for just incase
alright, yea ore on this "comment" how annoying... she's like "your arms are soo scrowny" how doI get her back? I mean I'm not so mean as to say she looks like a dog, or that she smells bad all the time, plus she wouldn't believe me anyways, she so friken concieted, oh well!! I'd be sad if she died, but I secretly be thankful too...
I seriously dunno what else to write, Maybe I'm doing good here, I dunno if it happened over night, they say things don't happen over night, but if what I'm dealing with is not normal, than sould they solution have to be normal... everything seems so silly looking back on it, I use to feel so normal... even though I was always tying to be normal... I guess I was normal.... and by trying to fit in, I just ended up screwing myself over.
Maybe just realizing, for truth, that it dosn't really matter what other people think... that I can honestly say screw them, I do what I want, what I like, and when I want... Maybe it's time I start being the one thing that no one in the world will ever be... myself
yea, I'm dry out of words.... so um... heres whats been going on lately!
stress!/ finally summer, even though I forgot sometimes when it get hot, it gets humid too..... so it sucks, its so nasty out.... evne though its almost off. summer. AHH creepy teachers stop pacing around, lol. Well yes, just finally friggen got all the project done, science? I dunno what I'm gunna do there, ive been very lazy in science lately, i'll have to get ahead again this weekend. I will get ahead this weekend... I will. I must. and I will...
and what else will I do, welll I'll probably re re-cord that song with jackie & sara, cause well, the one we got right now isn't too great, plus we need to make up our own lyrics, thank god mr.marcucci wasn't here today though, today has been a very lucky day for me... sucky, but lucky!
yea wow, I just feel liek reaching over and stabbing her to death with a colred pencil.. lol. no not really, but the thought did cross my mind a couple times....... maybe she'll go mute one day..... that might be, naw nm, she'd still be annoying somehow.
this keyboard is so nasty, ick, I can't stand it! lol yea
I dunno what else to say?! ah..
um well, I dunno the other night my parents got wicked pissed at me again for you know why, and yanno what, they still seem liek all, id unno, but I don't care... I hope that they can see it when I'm better, cause I'm not going to waste my time tryingt o prove it to them, i sitll havn't quite proven it to myself yet either I guess.
but who needs proof, you don't need proof to believe in god, so why would you need proof to believe in yourself... I guess its one of those things you either just pick up, or maybe don't even realize you pick it up, it just,,, happens?
w.e, I'm not goign to live by any of these weird rule I make in my head anymore either, I think... oh if I think that way somebody miught think this, or that or blah blah blah, my new priority is to try not to care, not not care liek as in hate people, but not care if something gets to me... i know i'll still care, but maybe I can not care on more of the line of, okay I care but f-u.... and then I can jogg it off or something, i know I'll get better...just don't know what day.
Sick minds, they all have unhealthy heads, I have one too, but mines getting treatment reality in a bulk, they, they get reality with time.... so maybe I am ment to grow up fast, maybe I hope, real life starts for me soon, cause I havn't really even lived yet, and I have 2 years till I'm off. an adult
I guess I know know, that my dreams of doing what I love, are in my own hands now, I can make them happen... they arn't really that far outta grasp, I just got to take a grab
Apparently
anywhoo,
Um, yes it is suppose to be art class, 80 friken minutes of it, instead, we are in the computer lab today becuase they are having a teachers meeting in the art room, how random is that, and now I'm stuck bored out of my mind in the comp lab, constantly making sure some freaky teacher I havn't even head yet isn't crouching over my shoulder.... ahhh tis life... oh and yep, i get to listen to my annoying frekin sister to, annouse all tthe things that pop up into her annoying little mind... and I wish there was some way I could just make her hate life, so she'd shut up, but whatever thats evil,
and yep, another comment on my "skinny-ness" OH WELL! I don't care, don't look your fat, I'm skinny, no ones perfect.... yep time for a save, for just incase
alright, yea ore on this "comment" how annoying... she's like "your arms are soo scrowny" how doI get her back? I mean I'm not so mean as to say she looks like a dog, or that she smells bad all the time, plus she wouldn't believe me anyways, she so friken concieted, oh well!! I'd be sad if she died, but I secretly be thankful too...
I seriously dunno what else to write, Maybe I'm doing good here, I dunno if it happened over night, they say things don't happen over night, but if what I'm dealing with is not normal, than sould they solution have to be normal... everything seems so silly looking back on it, I use to feel so normal... even though I was always tying to be normal... I guess I was normal.... and by trying to fit in, I just ended up screwing myself over.
Maybe just realizing, for truth, that it dosn't really matter what other people think... that I can honestly say screw them, I do what I want, what I like, and when I want... Maybe it's time I start being the one thing that no one in the world will ever be... myself
yea, I'm dry out of words.... so um... heres whats been going on lately!
stress!/ finally summer, even though I forgot sometimes when it get hot, it gets humid too..... so it sucks, its so nasty out.... evne though its almost off. summer. AHH creepy teachers stop pacing around, lol. Well yes, just finally friggen got all the project done, science? I dunno what I'm gunna do there, ive been very lazy in science lately, i'll have to get ahead again this weekend. I will get ahead this weekend... I will. I must. and I will...
and what else will I do, welll I'll probably re re-cord that song with jackie & sara, cause well, the one we got right now isn't too great, plus we need to make up our own lyrics, thank god mr.marcucci wasn't here today though, today has been a very lucky day for me... sucky, but lucky!
yea wow, I just feel liek reaching over and stabbing her to death with a colred pencil.. lol. no not really, but the thought did cross my mind a couple times....... maybe she'll go mute one day..... that might be, naw nm, she'd still be annoying somehow.
this keyboard is so nasty, ick, I can't stand it! lol yea
I dunno what else to say?! ah..
um well, I dunno the other night my parents got wicked pissed at me again for you know why, and yanno what, they still seem liek all, id unno, but I don't care... I hope that they can see it when I'm better, cause I'm not going to waste my time tryingt o prove it to them, i sitll havn't quite proven it to myself yet either I guess.
but who needs proof, you don't need proof to believe in god, so why would you need proof to believe in yourself... I guess its one of those things you either just pick up, or maybe don't even realize you pick it up, it just,,, happens?
w.e, I'm not goign to live by any of these weird rule I make in my head anymore either, I think... oh if I think that way somebody miught think this, or that or blah blah blah, my new priority is to try not to care, not not care liek as in hate people, but not care if something gets to me... i know i'll still care, but maybe I can not care on more of the line of, okay I care but f-u.... and then I can jogg it off or something, i know I'll get better...just don't know what day.
Sick minds, they all have unhealthy heads, I have one too, but mines getting treatment reality in a bulk, they, they get reality with time.... so maybe I am ment to grow up fast, maybe I hope, real life starts for me soon, cause I havn't really even lived yet, and I have 2 years till I'm off. an adult
I guess I know know, that my dreams of doing what I love, are in my own hands now, I can make them happen... they arn't really that far outta grasp, I just got to take a grab