calm
i wonder if i can hold on to this calmness when i'm at work today.
i wonder if i can keep to myself without people making assumptions.
i wonder if i can say how i feel when asked without getting every word picked apart to make someone else feel right and good.
oh i just love the words going around about me in the place where i spend half my time.
i love what the reason i've been quiet is, it's rather pathetic. too bad for them it's not true at all and gives them a false idea of me. screw it.
i'll keep to myself when i want, people can say what they want, well, actually only one person is running around victimizing themself.
but i'm the immature one? ok, that's fine. i don't care anymore.
for anyone who cares to know, this is it. i had been having crazy moods with extreme down feelings on and off my whole life (that's why you see a lot of angry words and poems from me and why my username starts with BITTER), i could handle it most of the time i just get a little weird, like maybe i shut people out when i happens cuz i don't want to snap at them, so i vent on here. last time it happened, instead of seeking the reason from me they used the last angry thing i wrote here(which is where i come to vent and not hold back), which also, had been written a week earlier. so there starts the drama.
i know the people she gossips about me to probably won't see this, but i feel a little better now. she's right, this is ridiculous, it's ridiculous to me because all i did was take some time to sort things out in my head and this is what happened. thank you, cuz now it's akward cause i don't know who's been told what. you took that from me, i'll i've done is kept quiet.
if you do read this, i don't need one of your story long replies that pick and analyze every word, don't bother, i won't read it, unless you do that so other people can read it.
i hope they give me a high enough dosage of this medication that i don't even care enough to go on here anymore. have a great day.
anyway, tonight will be fun, jason mosley kicks ass!
i wonder if i can keep to myself without people making assumptions.
i wonder if i can say how i feel when asked without getting every word picked apart to make someone else feel right and good.
oh i just love the words going around about me in the place where i spend half my time.
i love what the reason i've been quiet is, it's rather pathetic. too bad for them it's not true at all and gives them a false idea of me. screw it.
i'll keep to myself when i want, people can say what they want, well, actually only one person is running around victimizing themself.
but i'm the immature one? ok, that's fine. i don't care anymore.
for anyone who cares to know, this is it. i had been having crazy moods with extreme down feelings on and off my whole life (that's why you see a lot of angry words and poems from me and why my username starts with BITTER), i could handle it most of the time i just get a little weird, like maybe i shut people out when i happens cuz i don't want to snap at them, so i vent on here. last time it happened, instead of seeking the reason from me they used the last angry thing i wrote here(which is where i come to vent and not hold back), which also, had been written a week earlier. so there starts the drama.
i know the people she gossips about me to probably won't see this, but i feel a little better now. she's right, this is ridiculous, it's ridiculous to me because all i did was take some time to sort things out in my head and this is what happened. thank you, cuz now it's akward cause i don't know who's been told what. you took that from me, i'll i've done is kept quiet.
if you do read this, i don't need one of your story long replies that pick and analyze every word, don't bother, i won't read it, unless you do that so other people can read it.
i hope they give me a high enough dosage of this medication that i don't even care enough to go on here anymore. have a great day.
anyway, tonight will be fun, jason mosley kicks ass!