perceptive or paranoid

[bitter2lucy]

i'm in a dark, cold place
a prisoner in my mind
urgeing to destroy
but behind a quiet face
i hurt and i hate
only in a whisper
i'm on the edge of losing my grasp
reveiling the ugliness inside
the silence is slowly burning a hole through me
will this pain ever stop

someone so empty
still the voice stings
the presence twists my stomache
i'm pathetic and hopeful
letting myself get toyed
over and over
until there's nothing left
just bad thoughts
bad days
bad weeks
terrible realizations