I went off my antidepressants/mood stabilizers/antipsychotics again about two weeks ago. I was doing okay this time. Partly it's because I wanted to get them totally out of my system to see what the difference would be, partly it was because i really really hate taking them. I'm so sick of my mood stabilizers in particular - it's made me unable to ( Read more... )

I'm laying pretty low at the moment. Nothing new, except my doctor is now testing me for things other than glandular fever. I'll know tomorrow. I'm still fairly exhausted, sleeping sixteen hours a day, and my joints are being a bitch right now. Particularly my lower back and my knees. So now she's testing for weird things like ross river fever, and ( Read more... )

I've been really out of it the past few weeks. My glandular fever seems to be getting worse if anything. I've mainly been sleeping 16-20 hours a day, and it's fucking killing me. My lack of ability to do anything has also caused depression to set in.  It's all okay really, I'm just... I dunno. The world isn't a great place right now. I'm also ( Read more... )

 I'm finding myself completely isolated at the moment. Having glandular fever is infuriating to me - I want to get out and do things and have a job, and just do things. Everything is tiring at the moment, and it's making me feel sufficiently out of the loop. As though all my friends are having fun and leading awesome lives, but i'm stagnant and ( Read more... )

I've missed too many days of livejournal to be bothered catching up on my faves. If you were past 160 entries back, you've missed me. If something major is going on, do tell me though, as I do care but have been busy with doctors appointments ( Read more... )

I feel sad. Fucking emotions. It's also partly because I am feeling useless; my inability to do anything is really creating brain havoc. It's interesting, because even if i weren't incapacitated with the whole illness thing, I doubt I would be doing anything anyway. Before this all came on I was feeling a bit useless and... yeah. I still feel ( Read more... )

In my times of feeling depressed, lonely and isolated it is really easy to forget that many many people also feel the same way. And while each person's experience is different, I hope others also take comfort in the fact that they, ironically, aren't alone in their loneliness.

My health has gone from bad to worse - I don't know if I will be leaving ( Read more... )