I just love the word, it has very little bearing in regard to the following posts ( Read more... )

Four days ago instead of getting out of the sea like a normal person by climbing the pier stairs, I basically pulled and lifted the entire weight of my body using my arms. I didn't feel anything that day but the next day when I woke up I had an acute pain in my back near the right shoulder blade. I've had something like this before and, oh boy, it' ( Read more... )

I guessed the Wi-Fi password again yesterday, found a few places where "someone wasn't right" god damn me and thus I finished typing only around 3:40am! Prior to that I watched 4 movies back to back, and then browsed the web for at least five hours. What followed was frightening as hell ( Read more... )

I don't remember what happened last night after I went to bed around 3:35am. I couldn't fall asleep despite being sleep deprived and exhausted. I woke up at 10am by myself, i.e. I slept less than six hours. Fuck. And less than five yesterday ( Read more... )

Yesterday around 2pm I arrived at my free state hospital where, it turned out, the the traumatologist wasn't available as he was on vacation until October, 2d. I got upset ( Read more... )

Three days ago I cried like a madman for at least two hours, the past two days have been easier on me except not so much. Yesterday and the day before yesterday it took me a ton of effort not to break into tears. I clinched my fists, I took deep breaths, I grimaced to contain myself ( Read more... )

Yesterday when I got back from parents to my apartment house and decided to check my mailbox I realized I'd forgotten my ... apartment number. That was quite scary and I plunged into despair as I was standing near the mailboxes. I couldn't deduce whether the last digit was either eight or nine. After a minute or so, I painfully calculated that the ( Read more... )

My sleeping regime for the past month has been in tatters. I regularly go to sleep past 4-7am and twice I went to bed around 9am. And twice it was because of my inclination towards playing CS:GO for up to 8 hours in a row, starting around 12am. Of course I broke the promise not to install the damn game ever again. It's not that the game is "damned ( Read more... )

Last night, around 2am I went to the Lenta mall to buy something to eat: we didn't even have bread at home. In the mall something frightening happened. I was walking in the isles when I suddenly realized I couldn't understand where I was. That was scary as hell. When a sane person is heading to somewhere you're always aware what your path to your ( Read more... )

I was late by 15 minutes for Mom's birthday. Brother was not present - he couldn't come "due to a blizzard at the dacha". What a strange excuse considering that he could come by train. Grandma was also present. Mom baked a wonderful cake once again. Mom talked about her gums again: she's basically drying up and her gums are disappearing in her ( Read more... )