life.
Saw my new p-doc for the first time yesterday.
I felt so shy and nervous, I had to have my mom do most of the talking. [I'm nearly 19 and I still can't do this on my own..?]
I kept fiddling with my scarf and my piercings.
I was nearly in tears when we left, because things that I didn't want to remember were brought up.
Funny how those things go...
He upped my klonopin a little to help with my sleep and anxiety.
I go back in two weeks to see if that helped and to see about an anti-depressant.
I didn't go to my two classes yesterday.
I went home early from my art class today.
I feel too much pressure...
my art teacher keeps looking at my work and saying "FABULOUS! ...HURRY IT UP."
I can't hurry...I don't have the energy or motivation.
Telling me to hurry makes me anxious.
I think my ex is finally getting the idea that we're not getting back together any time soon, after I told him I kissed a guy when we went up together to where we went to uni last semester.
I knew it was most likely going to happen between this guy and me, but my ex was in denial saying "she's not like that." Not like what? I broke up with you. We're over. This guy and I like each other as more than friends, we just can't be together because we live 3 hours apart.
My ex annoys me and tires me out every time I talk to him.
I almost want to cut him off, but then I won't know what that'll do to me when I'm at my lowest lows and need someone there for me...
Why is life so confusing when I'm so young?
I felt so shy and nervous, I had to have my mom do most of the talking. [I'm nearly 19 and I still can't do this on my own..?]
I kept fiddling with my scarf and my piercings.
I was nearly in tears when we left, because things that I didn't want to remember were brought up.
Funny how those things go...
He upped my klonopin a little to help with my sleep and anxiety.
I go back in two weeks to see if that helped and to see about an anti-depressant.
I didn't go to my two classes yesterday.
I went home early from my art class today.
I feel too much pressure...
my art teacher keeps looking at my work and saying "FABULOUS! ...HURRY IT UP."
I can't hurry...I don't have the energy or motivation.
Telling me to hurry makes me anxious.
I think my ex is finally getting the idea that we're not getting back together any time soon, after I told him I kissed a guy when we went up together to where we went to uni last semester.
I knew it was most likely going to happen between this guy and me, but my ex was in denial saying "she's not like that." Not like what? I broke up with you. We're over. This guy and I like each other as more than friends, we just can't be together because we live 3 hours apart.
My ex annoys me and tires me out every time I talk to him.
I almost want to cut him off, but then I won't know what that'll do to me when I'm at my lowest lows and need someone there for me...
Why is life so confusing when I'm so young?