Trying Harder...
I've assed my life and situation. I know what I have to do now. I literally have in my notebook.
Goals...
- Be a better fiancé
- Ask how his day was
- Shower him every other day
- Rub his back well every other night
- Have dinner ready by 5pm
- Have all work clothes picked up at cleaners by Sunday eve.
- Initiate lovemaking 3x per week, (2x being on top); oral 2x a week.
- Give him haircuts every month
- Play Warcraft 3x per week
- KEEP the house clean at all times
- Both of us in school
- Mark at least 6 hours on Saturdays
- Me 6 hours through the week, 6 hours on Saturday morning
- Loose weight
- Low impact aerobics or walking 3x per week
- Only snack on low fat snacks, yogurt, or fruits. No more than 1 cup per serving
- Only eat 3 meals per day
- Drink at least 1 liter of water each day
- Only have soda with dinner, juice for every other meal is ok in small amounts, water in between.
- Weight loss supplements 2x daily; morning and noon.
- Do small things that make me happy
- Accomplish small things
- Make good grades
- Make an effort at everything
- Take meds on time
- Read, write, listen to music
- Make money
My meds have me so sedate and vegitative that its hard to get out of bed, not to mention the depression that has a hold of me 24/7. I take so many trying to just wake up that its difficult to do anything.
Heres what im on now:
Geodon 80-mg once a day
Lamicxtol (Lamotrigene) 200mg twice a day
Celexa 80mg once a day
Vistaril 40mg twice daily
Wellbutril XR 120mg twice daily
It's too much for my body to deal with. :(
I've finally gotten a lawyer to help out with all of the crap i've been going around with the social security about my disability income. It's just too much for me to worry with on top of everything else.