Cinema Paradiso
Friday afternoon, not even 4:00 yet but I am shut down mentally and ready for bed. It's been a long week with a lot of disrupted sleep. Though the sciatica bothered me all night, I was surprised with how little I noticed it this morning while I was moving around. Once I sat at the desk though, it was a different story. I am really starting to see how the condition is affecting my routine, and my work.
As it is it takes little for me to become distracted from work. But, other things are being pushed aside because of my inability to sit down for long spells. I have a small stack of cards left to fill out still in order to send the next bulk shipment to that cards for the elderly organization. It likely would't take me more than an hour to do it, but my mind is just not in it.
Fish tanks need cleaning. Various things around the house. I bought these new adhesive stands for the ducks in the Jeep that have sat on the counter for a few weeks now. The garage is cold, even when it is warmish outside and it deflates my motivation as I'll need to clean the inside of the Jeep, or at the very least the dashboard, before installing this new setup. It'd please me to do it, yet I don't.
All of this behavior smacks of depression. It's been a long time since I think I could say I was truly "depressed". I've had down times and difficulties, but not like I used to back in the day. Not to the point where functionality was a problem. Yet, I feel with how things have been recently that the old ways are lurking in the shadows.
Even though the weekend hasn't technically started yet, I already feel like it's over. I have a haircut in the morning which means we need to be out the door before 7 A.M. I like getting a move on early, but it just feels like an obligation for this appointment. Then we are supposed to go to birthday drinks tomorrow night for one of the Sparrow's friends. I like her just fine, but the idea of going out on a Saturday night just feels like a sword strike right down the center of the weekend.
Gone are my days of wanting to go out and drink till dawn. I'd much rather be in bed by 8:00 on a Saturday night, with a full Sunday to look forward to. I feel not an ounce of shame about this. I don't feel "old" because I no longer want to be out late on the weekend. In fact, I feel quite intelligent with this stance.
All these factors though are making it seem like the weekend is already over.
I think I wrote about us watching 'The Godfather' last weekend. We've been wanting to watch part two, but it is over three hours long and we can't commit to that kind of time during the week. Not sure if we'll get to it this weekend or not. We did watch an old Hitchcock movie last night I'd never seen before, 'Torn Curtain'. It had Paul Newman and Julie Andrews in it. It was a bit slow, though I didn't hate it. It sort of felt like Julie Andrews was wrong for the part, simply because of the things I know her from. I enjoyed the visuals and the style very much.
It was funny because the Sparrow has no memory of the Cold War, or the Iron Curtain and Berlin being divided in two (along with the rest of Germany). He initially thought that the movie was set during WWII and I had to remind him that the ramifications of the war lingered on for decades. I just always knew what the Cold War was, because I was living in it. It was talked about in school and was referenced on TV and in movies. He didn't come from that world, and it is quite interesting to contemplate the variance of our experiences in that regard.
I popped in 'The Love Bug' this afternoon while I was barely working. I haven't seen that movie for forty years most likely. I'd even say maybe forty-five years. I still remembered it for the most part. And I also saw that it was a movie that showed a lot of the landscapes and grainy footage I was talking about the other day when referencing nature specials and documentaries of my youth. Before Disney turned to shit I did often watch and enjoy many of their live-action movies. I was never much into the animation.
I loved Herbie. My dad even painted a VW toy car to look like him for me. Likely a lot of my current bad driving was influenced by the Herbie movies, as well as 'The Cannonball Run' and 'Smokey and the Bandit'.
We continue to find great satisfaction in watching all these older films. The cool part is the fact that *I* have not seen many of them. Usually I am putting on movies I know for the Sparrow to see for the first time. But, with these older classics we get to experience them for the first time together and discuss them after.
I also finished cataloging all my physical media. It didn't take that long at all to do. As it stands there are currently 1093 movies and TV shows in the collection. TV shows are only counted once, unless they come in season box sets. Then only the box for each season was counted. But, I did count movie collections in box sets separately. Like with Hitchcock, I recently bought his box set but felt it made sense in the records to list each movie individually. Same with Mel Brooks, Clint Eastwood etc etc...
There are a couple duplicates throughout. I know I have the 25th and 35th anniversary editions of 'Halloween'. One on DVD and one on bluray. Some duplicates with Godzilla films too. I weeded out others that we didn't need two copies of. And I had already removed a small chunk of ones we didn't want a few months ago.
I'd really love for us to have a movie room downstairs. I don't care so much about displaying the movies to flex about it. More so, I just hate them all being in boxes. It'd be fun to have them shelved and be able to look through them and pick selections out easily versus trying to remember what box they were in.
I am glad I didn't just rashly get rid of them all years ago. I like having the physical copies. I need to go through the CDs next. I did start last year, around October. But they've sat in stacks down there. I know there are some I will NEVER listen to again. With movies, you never know... but some of that music was a waste when I bought it. And there are dozens of CDs I never listened to a single time from the days they were purchased.
As it is it takes little for me to become distracted from work. But, other things are being pushed aside because of my inability to sit down for long spells. I have a small stack of cards left to fill out still in order to send the next bulk shipment to that cards for the elderly organization. It likely would't take me more than an hour to do it, but my mind is just not in it.
Fish tanks need cleaning. Various things around the house. I bought these new adhesive stands for the ducks in the Jeep that have sat on the counter for a few weeks now. The garage is cold, even when it is warmish outside and it deflates my motivation as I'll need to clean the inside of the Jeep, or at the very least the dashboard, before installing this new setup. It'd please me to do it, yet I don't.
All of this behavior smacks of depression. It's been a long time since I think I could say I was truly "depressed". I've had down times and difficulties, but not like I used to back in the day. Not to the point where functionality was a problem. Yet, I feel with how things have been recently that the old ways are lurking in the shadows.
Even though the weekend hasn't technically started yet, I already feel like it's over. I have a haircut in the morning which means we need to be out the door before 7 A.M. I like getting a move on early, but it just feels like an obligation for this appointment. Then we are supposed to go to birthday drinks tomorrow night for one of the Sparrow's friends. I like her just fine, but the idea of going out on a Saturday night just feels like a sword strike right down the center of the weekend.
Gone are my days of wanting to go out and drink till dawn. I'd much rather be in bed by 8:00 on a Saturday night, with a full Sunday to look forward to. I feel not an ounce of shame about this. I don't feel "old" because I no longer want to be out late on the weekend. In fact, I feel quite intelligent with this stance.
All these factors though are making it seem like the weekend is already over.
I think I wrote about us watching 'The Godfather' last weekend. We've been wanting to watch part two, but it is over three hours long and we can't commit to that kind of time during the week. Not sure if we'll get to it this weekend or not. We did watch an old Hitchcock movie last night I'd never seen before, 'Torn Curtain'. It had Paul Newman and Julie Andrews in it. It was a bit slow, though I didn't hate it. It sort of felt like Julie Andrews was wrong for the part, simply because of the things I know her from. I enjoyed the visuals and the style very much.
It was funny because the Sparrow has no memory of the Cold War, or the Iron Curtain and Berlin being divided in two (along with the rest of Germany). He initially thought that the movie was set during WWII and I had to remind him that the ramifications of the war lingered on for decades. I just always knew what the Cold War was, because I was living in it. It was talked about in school and was referenced on TV and in movies. He didn't come from that world, and it is quite interesting to contemplate the variance of our experiences in that regard.
I popped in 'The Love Bug' this afternoon while I was barely working. I haven't seen that movie for forty years most likely. I'd even say maybe forty-five years. I still remembered it for the most part. And I also saw that it was a movie that showed a lot of the landscapes and grainy footage I was talking about the other day when referencing nature specials and documentaries of my youth. Before Disney turned to shit I did often watch and enjoy many of their live-action movies. I was never much into the animation.
I loved Herbie. My dad even painted a VW toy car to look like him for me. Likely a lot of my current bad driving was influenced by the Herbie movies, as well as 'The Cannonball Run' and 'Smokey and the Bandit'.
We continue to find great satisfaction in watching all these older films. The cool part is the fact that *I* have not seen many of them. Usually I am putting on movies I know for the Sparrow to see for the first time. But, with these older classics we get to experience them for the first time together and discuss them after.
I also finished cataloging all my physical media. It didn't take that long at all to do. As it stands there are currently 1093 movies and TV shows in the collection. TV shows are only counted once, unless they come in season box sets. Then only the box for each season was counted. But, I did count movie collections in box sets separately. Like with Hitchcock, I recently bought his box set but felt it made sense in the records to list each movie individually. Same with Mel Brooks, Clint Eastwood etc etc...
There are a couple duplicates throughout. I know I have the 25th and 35th anniversary editions of 'Halloween'. One on DVD and one on bluray. Some duplicates with Godzilla films too. I weeded out others that we didn't need two copies of. And I had already removed a small chunk of ones we didn't want a few months ago.
I'd really love for us to have a movie room downstairs. I don't care so much about displaying the movies to flex about it. More so, I just hate them all being in boxes. It'd be fun to have them shelved and be able to look through them and pick selections out easily versus trying to remember what box they were in.
I am glad I didn't just rashly get rid of them all years ago. I like having the physical copies. I need to go through the CDs next. I did start last year, around October. But they've sat in stacks down there. I know there are some I will NEVER listen to again. With movies, you never know... but some of that music was a waste when I bought it. And there are dozens of CDs I never listened to a single time from the days they were purchased.