Shit House Rat
Miss Managed "forgot" yesterday that her aunt died on Friday. Out of nowhere at the end of the day yesterday she jumped up and said "Oh my God, I have a wake to go to tonight and a funeral tomorrow!". I mentioned that the aunt must not have been too close to her since she had forgotten, but she said to the contrary that she was.
The Boss came in this morning and asked me how one "forgets" their aunt has died. He apparently got a call from her this morning that she wouldn't be in because of the funeral. He is not sure whether she is just lying or if she is truly losing her mind. He believes more in the latter, that she is a mental case who is about to go over the edge.
She was as nice as pie to me yesterday morning, all because of the new hire we have coming in that she is threatened by. But, at lunch things took a turn for the whacko when the Boss and I were discussing the client we had to work late at tonight. She claimed all three of us were scheduled to go to her client in the burbs today and she had sent out an Outlook appointment for it weeks ago. An appoint the Boss "apparently" accepted and I "apparently" ignored. There was no such appointment and the rest of the lunch meeting was taken up by her trying to decide what day in the next two weeks all three of us could be dragged out to this pointlessness.
The appointment? To run Windows updates on workstations. A task that 1. Does not require three people (or even two in my opinion) and 2. A task that can be done remotely.
It's almost as if she knows I am working late two or three nights a week now and she wants to make sure any week I am not, she makes it happen. I know she's not smart enough for that though. This is just general stupidity from her. Then she brings up the issue of taking images at this same client... a client that couldn't afford to pay us to do it quarterly before. But, about every six months it becomes an EMERGENCY issue and she tries to use it to make it seem like I'm not doing my job. I've already talked to the Boss about the new guy having to go with her to take the images... which makes total sense since he has a car.
Also, it became clear she is not even following through on one of the few tasks she has at one of her clients, which is running ghost images on user workstations quarterly. It was so evident she had not been keeping up with it that the Boss asked me on the side to "keep an eye on things". So now, not only am I doing most of her work. I am also needed to keep tabs on the work she does have left to do.
It's getting to the point where I just do not believe she is doing anything. How can she be?! She can't be trusted to do anything important. Even as I sit here now I am looking over at her desk at a brand new SonicWall that was ordered for one of her clients literally MONTHS ago... I think possibly as far back as November or December. And it's just sitting on her desk.... who knows when it's ever going to be installed. I half believe that the day I have to go image this client of hers that'll be the day she decides I need to bring the SonicWall with me and install it for her.
She also had some idiot idea for using a ten year old server as a Windows Update Server for the client of hers in the burbs. Trouble is, she never follows through on her ideas and guess who will have to.... Yup, me of course. The Boss already said that he was hoping I'd do so behind her back because he doesn't even trust the info she does provide. I can't win.
As I was laying in bed last night, I felt the conflict in my head... really and truly. I have been in an okay mood the past few days, barring a terrible hangover Sunday. But, there as I lay waiting for sleep to come I could feel the depression trying to inch its way back in. And the deep, dark feeling of hopelessness trying to crush what little energy and positivity I have found in the past week.
It's hopeless... there's nothing but more work and more misery ahead. People try to tell me to "cheer up" and be "positive"... the forces against me... against people... they're just too great. To stand in the face of doom and pretend the infinite abyss isn't there is more foolish than anything.
There IS nothing but doom ahead. There IS nothing but endless hours of work. There IS nothing but high expectations. My head is underwater and I can't swim. There's no hope. I will drown. And logically so, it makes perfect sense that I would. Sunshiny attitudes and positivity is the lie.
The Boss came in this morning and asked me how one "forgets" their aunt has died. He apparently got a call from her this morning that she wouldn't be in because of the funeral. He is not sure whether she is just lying or if she is truly losing her mind. He believes more in the latter, that she is a mental case who is about to go over the edge.
She was as nice as pie to me yesterday morning, all because of the new hire we have coming in that she is threatened by. But, at lunch things took a turn for the whacko when the Boss and I were discussing the client we had to work late at tonight. She claimed all three of us were scheduled to go to her client in the burbs today and she had sent out an Outlook appointment for it weeks ago. An appoint the Boss "apparently" accepted and I "apparently" ignored. There was no such appointment and the rest of the lunch meeting was taken up by her trying to decide what day in the next two weeks all three of us could be dragged out to this pointlessness.
The appointment? To run Windows updates on workstations. A task that 1. Does not require three people (or even two in my opinion) and 2. A task that can be done remotely.
It's almost as if she knows I am working late two or three nights a week now and she wants to make sure any week I am not, she makes it happen. I know she's not smart enough for that though. This is just general stupidity from her. Then she brings up the issue of taking images at this same client... a client that couldn't afford to pay us to do it quarterly before. But, about every six months it becomes an EMERGENCY issue and she tries to use it to make it seem like I'm not doing my job. I've already talked to the Boss about the new guy having to go with her to take the images... which makes total sense since he has a car.
Also, it became clear she is not even following through on one of the few tasks she has at one of her clients, which is running ghost images on user workstations quarterly. It was so evident she had not been keeping up with it that the Boss asked me on the side to "keep an eye on things". So now, not only am I doing most of her work. I am also needed to keep tabs on the work she does have left to do.
It's getting to the point where I just do not believe she is doing anything. How can she be?! She can't be trusted to do anything important. Even as I sit here now I am looking over at her desk at a brand new SonicWall that was ordered for one of her clients literally MONTHS ago... I think possibly as far back as November or December. And it's just sitting on her desk.... who knows when it's ever going to be installed. I half believe that the day I have to go image this client of hers that'll be the day she decides I need to bring the SonicWall with me and install it for her.
She also had some idiot idea for using a ten year old server as a Windows Update Server for the client of hers in the burbs. Trouble is, she never follows through on her ideas and guess who will have to.... Yup, me of course. The Boss already said that he was hoping I'd do so behind her back because he doesn't even trust the info she does provide. I can't win.
As I was laying in bed last night, I felt the conflict in my head... really and truly. I have been in an okay mood the past few days, barring a terrible hangover Sunday. But, there as I lay waiting for sleep to come I could feel the depression trying to inch its way back in. And the deep, dark feeling of hopelessness trying to crush what little energy and positivity I have found in the past week.
It's hopeless... there's nothing but more work and more misery ahead. People try to tell me to "cheer up" and be "positive"... the forces against me... against people... they're just too great. To stand in the face of doom and pretend the infinite abyss isn't there is more foolish than anything.
There IS nothing but doom ahead. There IS nothing but endless hours of work. There IS nothing but high expectations. My head is underwater and I can't swim. There's no hope. I will drown. And logically so, it makes perfect sense that I would. Sunshiny attitudes and positivity is the lie.