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Goodness, things are busy lately.
On top of keeping up with school work, which for me sometimes takes quite an effort not to slack off in, it's that time of year when band is consuming what seems to be every moment of spare time in my every week up through November.
And guess what? Up through November is the time when I need to have all my essays written and applications rolling for college. And to think I'm feeling badly for not having a job right now, too. I've recently decided I want to apply to some of the UC's out there and make a decent attempt at getting in somewhere, and if that doesn't work, just go to a junior college for two years as a fallback plan, rather than just resorting to going straight to a Cal State for sure. Amidst this I'm trying my very best not to let my crap grades from last year bother me too much.
Anyway, I wish band wasn't so in my face right now. And honestly, I just don't feel as into it as I did in previous years. It is a new experience in that I have the role of whipping what could be the worst section in band into shape single-handedly, but other than that, I just don't care, and I don't feel like devoting my current life to this silly activity. I don't even think we're doing all that well this year, which doesn't exactly encourage me. I have mixed feelings about Otani. I think he's a really cool guy, but seriously there are so many times when I wish he had as much experience as McElroy did. I'm sure he'll rock in 5 years or so.
Sorry to lapse into a rant like that, especially because I hate it when people get too involved in their little band dramas.
I will say though, that I really miss my senior friends from last year, including the ones that weren't in band. I guess I was always kind of out of the loop with them, but I always got such a kick out of all of them and so enjoyed all the different personalities that they were. Right now, I am more distant from Sam and Alec than I ever have been since I first got to know them, and it does bother me. I partly blame it on myself and partly on circumstance as well. I mean, I really do love Rebecca, and I never get tired of spending time with her, but I have such an interest and such care in other people. Please don't think that I mean to glorify myself, these are just my thoughts as they come to me.
Anyway, time to get back to being busy. I don't know if people even read this, but it clears my head being able to post entries like this once in a while.
On top of keeping up with school work, which for me sometimes takes quite an effort not to slack off in, it's that time of year when band is consuming what seems to be every moment of spare time in my every week up through November.
And guess what? Up through November is the time when I need to have all my essays written and applications rolling for college. And to think I'm feeling badly for not having a job right now, too. I've recently decided I want to apply to some of the UC's out there and make a decent attempt at getting in somewhere, and if that doesn't work, just go to a junior college for two years as a fallback plan, rather than just resorting to going straight to a Cal State for sure. Amidst this I'm trying my very best not to let my crap grades from last year bother me too much.
Anyway, I wish band wasn't so in my face right now. And honestly, I just don't feel as into it as I did in previous years. It is a new experience in that I have the role of whipping what could be the worst section in band into shape single-handedly, but other than that, I just don't care, and I don't feel like devoting my current life to this silly activity. I don't even think we're doing all that well this year, which doesn't exactly encourage me. I have mixed feelings about Otani. I think he's a really cool guy, but seriously there are so many times when I wish he had as much experience as McElroy did. I'm sure he'll rock in 5 years or so.
Sorry to lapse into a rant like that, especially because I hate it when people get too involved in their little band dramas.
I will say though, that I really miss my senior friends from last year, including the ones that weren't in band. I guess I was always kind of out of the loop with them, but I always got such a kick out of all of them and so enjoyed all the different personalities that they were. Right now, I am more distant from Sam and Alec than I ever have been since I first got to know them, and it does bother me. I partly blame it on myself and partly on circumstance as well. I mean, I really do love Rebecca, and I never get tired of spending time with her, but I have such an interest and such care in other people. Please don't think that I mean to glorify myself, these are just my thoughts as they come to me.
Anyway, time to get back to being busy. I don't know if people even read this, but it clears my head being able to post entries like this once in a while.