Days Go By And Choices Still Remain Forever
Do live journal's count as a form of communication between two people? I'm sure they do if you reply to someone's post, but if you're just reading it and hoping someone doesn't know you are, is it a form of communication? Gino's been reading my posts, and from a guy who made this huge deal about not wanting to hear from me or talk to me, it seems off. I was showing a friend a picture of him (the only one I have access to is on his journal site) and his most recent journal entry had a reference to my last one. Why does he care what I'm doing or how I'm doing? And if he really did care don't you think he'd talk to me himself? I guess I just don't know what's going on in his life, and that pains me. I want to be there for him and he won't let me. And he won't tell me the real reason why. Of course he's told me why, but I refuse to believe that is the reason. There's something else going on there and I just wish I could help him. I care about him and I want him to be okay and something tells me that he's not.
Anyway, I really shouldn't care about this, it's just been on my mind lately. Don't worry all of you reading, I don't have feelings for him in that way. I don't want to be in a "relationship" with him, I'd just like to have my friend back. Give it a few more weeks and I'm sure I'll be singing a different tune. Plus, I think I have my first campus crush... which is not okay. Two of the 3rd year girls I have befriended have both said "Stay away from the campus boys. They'll play you." Which is mostly true. These guys do not have any competition. So about the crush. His name is Keith and he's tall and basically looks like your average California-surfer type. Longish sandy-blonde hair. He's cute but not "he's so gorgeous!" attractive. And he has every attractive single female in the Co-Ed Hall hanging on him all the time, so he is not exactly the boy we want Brianna to be dating. And I'm going to be "looking for love" off-campus. I hope to meet a more "quality" guy in New York if I don't expect to find him at FIT.
I wrote two poems today. I'm pretty excited about it. It's been awhile since I've been motivated to create, so I was happy when I had the urge to.
Well, that's it for me. I'm having breakfast with the Quenelle's at their hotel in the morning. I'll hear from you all later.
Love
Brianna
Anyway, I really shouldn't care about this, it's just been on my mind lately. Don't worry all of you reading, I don't have feelings for him in that way. I don't want to be in a "relationship" with him, I'd just like to have my friend back. Give it a few more weeks and I'm sure I'll be singing a different tune. Plus, I think I have my first campus crush... which is not okay. Two of the 3rd year girls I have befriended have both said "Stay away from the campus boys. They'll play you." Which is mostly true. These guys do not have any competition. So about the crush. His name is Keith and he's tall and basically looks like your average California-surfer type. Longish sandy-blonde hair. He's cute but not "he's so gorgeous!" attractive. And he has every attractive single female in the Co-Ed Hall hanging on him all the time, so he is not exactly the boy we want Brianna to be dating. And I'm going to be "looking for love" off-campus. I hope to meet a more "quality" guy in New York if I don't expect to find him at FIT.
I wrote two poems today. I'm pretty excited about it. It's been awhile since I've been motivated to create, so I was happy when I had the urge to.
Well, that's it for me. I'm having breakfast with the Quenelle's at their hotel in the morning. I'll hear from you all later.
Love
Brianna