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so things have been different up here.
I am really starting to miss people back home right now. :( I wanna go home so bad to see them, but my family is pretty broken right now, and i don't really know how to deal with that a whole lot. so going home may or may not be a good idea in that aspect. because i can't be away from the family problems i have no power to fix, if i have to stay at my mom or sisters house most of the time, or depend on them for a ride.
So i got new roommates and they are pretty cool people for the most part. I like them, and they seem to get along fine with james, except he is kinda sorta afraid of them. like he wants to be by them if i am at work or am hanging out with them, but if they just entered the room, fuck that, he doesn't like them. its actually cool cause he is a lady's dog anyways. But anyways, they all knew each other before moving in, and all work at the same bar called the wayside. Its a bar basically right on campus, that you walk into and both feel to old, and to young for. but i have went there twice in the last week to hang out with them at work with there friend Rider who is also pretty cool. he is like an unofficial fifth roommate. Typically i avoid the bar, because i don't drink alot, i hate cigerette smoke, and i make an ass out of myself meeting new people im not introduced too. But I am trying to make friends with my roommates, cause my last roommates kinda sucked, except Brea. and even she wasn't the greatest all the time ;) .
I dunno though. trying to make new friends actually only seems to make me miss my old friends. Does anyone else ever feel that way when making new friends. I dunno, i do all the time. Especially if they are all like established friends and i am the new guy. And it's weird cause we all hang out, and i don't feel left out at all, i just feel like they clearly have more history together, and that makes me feel awkward sometimes, because when they talk about that thing that happened a year ago, I can only listen really.
I dunno though, again i do go up to hang out with them at there work, cause i am trying to be more brave and come outside my shell/comfort zone. I am just trying to give it time, but again in the mean time I miss ya girls, cause outside of mark to my knowledge, lets face it, its mainly women reading it, and mark kinda qualifies as a woman anyways. lol.
other then that, i switched from optical to accounting on my own free will at work. It docked my pay about -$.30 an hour and gives me about 6-4 less hours a week. I dunno, i feel a little crazy for doing it, but here is my reasoning. I should still be able to afford all my bills and stuff which is what i mainly care about. and even though its a little bit taking a step back, i feel like with training in accounting there is more opportunity to move up into management if i want. plus, I know all i need to know to work at sams club in the optical department and its a little bit boring cause i wasn't really growing professionally. Anyways, so i am doing accounting now, but like i feel jinxed at accounting. cause like things are happening when i work, that arn't even my fault that never happens ever in the club. today our printer jammed and we couldn't get our morning reports (which i know seems small but was kinda at least a mid range deal) and the store is off balance but when you break it down all the departments do balance, and just fucked up shit thats not even my fault that makes every shift i work difficult. My boss more or less thinks its great cause when these problems that have happened once or not at all in the entire 2 1/2 years the store has been opened, happen to me when i am by myself i'll know what to do. Um. no I won't. that won't be for at least 3 months from now. right now i am just trying to get the basics down to work a shift that goes smoothly by myself. if i can ever have a shift go smoothly. lol. cause all these exceptions for things that arn't suppose to happen in the first place is confusing.
I dunno though. on the bright side, i still get to sit on my ass all day, listen to the radio or my ipod/cd's and the time seems to fly by really fast. like i feel 8 hours goes by in like what i feel is 3 hours. I am always like holy shit, it's not 3 o'clock already which is good cause optical dragged more often then not. oh, and now i can also put a face to $40,000.00 in cash in my hands. which is nice. on the down side, i have to worry about my mental state going into work more because its easy for me to burn out and then my brain goes into lock down and i can't seem to do any math right cause i am frustrated. Also right now i am training, but i think this week, i'll start being by myself. and thats how i'll basically work now. locked in a room that very few people have access to, counting and frustrated with no one to talk to, to get me through the day. i'll actually miss talking with customers at optical. there was actually an old guy who comes in regularly and drops off poems he rights himself and gives them to me so i can read them. There kinda weird, but there better then marks crazy ass joker poems and some of his poems rhyme and have rhythm which marks poems rarely have either, and more often then not, they make sense too.
actually i know i am teasing mark cause he is my friend and i can make fun of him all i want, but i actually am trying not to hate, cause i think creativity is good, even if it makes no sense and has no structure. which for the record i also need to get this out about marks poems.
dude, your an Architect. how can your poems have no structure. seriously Moe!
anyways i am just rambling now, and i think this is sufficiently long enough that few people will read it anyways. but sometimes i just feel good writing it. and if people actually read it and have something nice to say, well thats just gravy. which by the way is the best part of Thanksgiving. cause without gravy you have dry turkey and stuffing, and mashed potatoes just seem naked. but again i am rambling...
So i love you guys and i miss you more then you prolly know. and goodnight. ;)
I am really starting to miss people back home right now. :( I wanna go home so bad to see them, but my family is pretty broken right now, and i don't really know how to deal with that a whole lot. so going home may or may not be a good idea in that aspect. because i can't be away from the family problems i have no power to fix, if i have to stay at my mom or sisters house most of the time, or depend on them for a ride.
So i got new roommates and they are pretty cool people for the most part. I like them, and they seem to get along fine with james, except he is kinda sorta afraid of them. like he wants to be by them if i am at work or am hanging out with them, but if they just entered the room, fuck that, he doesn't like them. its actually cool cause he is a lady's dog anyways. But anyways, they all knew each other before moving in, and all work at the same bar called the wayside. Its a bar basically right on campus, that you walk into and both feel to old, and to young for. but i have went there twice in the last week to hang out with them at work with there friend Rider who is also pretty cool. he is like an unofficial fifth roommate. Typically i avoid the bar, because i don't drink alot, i hate cigerette smoke, and i make an ass out of myself meeting new people im not introduced too. But I am trying to make friends with my roommates, cause my last roommates kinda sucked, except Brea. and even she wasn't the greatest all the time ;) .
I dunno though. trying to make new friends actually only seems to make me miss my old friends. Does anyone else ever feel that way when making new friends. I dunno, i do all the time. Especially if they are all like established friends and i am the new guy. And it's weird cause we all hang out, and i don't feel left out at all, i just feel like they clearly have more history together, and that makes me feel awkward sometimes, because when they talk about that thing that happened a year ago, I can only listen really.
I dunno though, again i do go up to hang out with them at there work, cause i am trying to be more brave and come outside my shell/comfort zone. I am just trying to give it time, but again in the mean time I miss ya girls, cause outside of mark to my knowledge, lets face it, its mainly women reading it, and mark kinda qualifies as a woman anyways. lol.
other then that, i switched from optical to accounting on my own free will at work. It docked my pay about -$.30 an hour and gives me about 6-4 less hours a week. I dunno, i feel a little crazy for doing it, but here is my reasoning. I should still be able to afford all my bills and stuff which is what i mainly care about. and even though its a little bit taking a step back, i feel like with training in accounting there is more opportunity to move up into management if i want. plus, I know all i need to know to work at sams club in the optical department and its a little bit boring cause i wasn't really growing professionally. Anyways, so i am doing accounting now, but like i feel jinxed at accounting. cause like things are happening when i work, that arn't even my fault that never happens ever in the club. today our printer jammed and we couldn't get our morning reports (which i know seems small but was kinda at least a mid range deal) and the store is off balance but when you break it down all the departments do balance, and just fucked up shit thats not even my fault that makes every shift i work difficult. My boss more or less thinks its great cause when these problems that have happened once or not at all in the entire 2 1/2 years the store has been opened, happen to me when i am by myself i'll know what to do. Um. no I won't. that won't be for at least 3 months from now. right now i am just trying to get the basics down to work a shift that goes smoothly by myself. if i can ever have a shift go smoothly. lol. cause all these exceptions for things that arn't suppose to happen in the first place is confusing.
I dunno though. on the bright side, i still get to sit on my ass all day, listen to the radio or my ipod/cd's and the time seems to fly by really fast. like i feel 8 hours goes by in like what i feel is 3 hours. I am always like holy shit, it's not 3 o'clock already which is good cause optical dragged more often then not. oh, and now i can also put a face to $40,000.00 in cash in my hands. which is nice. on the down side, i have to worry about my mental state going into work more because its easy for me to burn out and then my brain goes into lock down and i can't seem to do any math right cause i am frustrated. Also right now i am training, but i think this week, i'll start being by myself. and thats how i'll basically work now. locked in a room that very few people have access to, counting and frustrated with no one to talk to, to get me through the day. i'll actually miss talking with customers at optical. there was actually an old guy who comes in regularly and drops off poems he rights himself and gives them to me so i can read them. There kinda weird, but there better then marks crazy ass joker poems and some of his poems rhyme and have rhythm which marks poems rarely have either, and more often then not, they make sense too.
actually i know i am teasing mark cause he is my friend and i can make fun of him all i want, but i actually am trying not to hate, cause i think creativity is good, even if it makes no sense and has no structure. which for the record i also need to get this out about marks poems.
dude, your an Architect. how can your poems have no structure. seriously Moe!
anyways i am just rambling now, and i think this is sufficiently long enough that few people will read it anyways. but sometimes i just feel good writing it. and if people actually read it and have something nice to say, well thats just gravy. which by the way is the best part of Thanksgiving. cause without gravy you have dry turkey and stuffing, and mashed potatoes just seem naked. but again i am rambling...
So i love you guys and i miss you more then you prolly know. and goodnight. ;)