Hooked on a Feeling...High on Believing...
I was going to tell him.
I had my words planned out to the dot.
I was waiting all night...hoping for a moment...some time alone.
Then it happend.
We were alone and looking into each others eyes.
It just didnt feel right and I bailed. Im such a wus.
I just got to thinking about how much it could ruin our friendship.
We flirt and laugh alot and i dont want us to ever have to be awkward around each other.
I am going to tell him one day...but i just dont know how or when.
I just started crying out to God to help me.
"Should i do it now? Maybe call him or text him? Write him a letter? an email?
Should i wait untill our friendship is stronger?
Should i just be spontaneous and go to him tomorrow?"
I just dont know what to do.
I like him so much...everytime i pray about us i always get that feeling of comfort and i can just picture us together...
I feel that God has given me signs that we will be.
I just dont want to ruin it.
Someday...he will know...and if he runs away...this may hurt A LOT worse than the last.
Brandon and I had something special but it dosnt even come close to the feelings i get when im around Blake.
I wish God could talk back...but he cant...so i may be just kidding myself.
I just cant fight this feeling. <3