I wonder all the time.....

[bettoney]

I wonder what I am. Am I an intellectual? Am I an idiot? Why do I feel the need to group people into these two broad categories? Surely I know the world is full of spectrums. That's one of the main points they teach in college, after all, isn't it? But I need to do it, I'm compelled to try and understand my place in the world, and I need to know if I'm truly an intellectual or not. I would say not, and that is what I fear. I mean, sure we all have our moments, but there is a mounting body of evidence that places me squarely in the idiot category these days. I hate school. I don't hate learning, but I'm not learning and I hate it. I REALLY hate school. But why? Why am I not learning anything? I can't possibly know all the shit that they're testing me over. I still get As. What is standing in my way and what is making me stagnate? I really need to push past all the crap that is clouding my mind and start being productive so that I can in turn start being insightful and then perhaps I will find the will to learn again. Or perhaps not. I don't even have TV but I already feel so middle class American - lazy, bored, seeking passive entertainment to accompany my fast food. Gross. None of it makes sense if I think back on the past few years. But, life is an uphill battle and fortunately, thanks to high couture, we have Ugg boots and those cute printed rubber rain boots to keep our feet warm. Wow, are we lucky.

And on a final note, I really think the technological age has rendered us horridly unsophisticated. People in generations past were just more........I don't know. They were MORE. That's all.

I love Slurpees!!!!