I'm sorry the doldrums have got you down. I wish I had some good advice for you to make things better, but the truth is I don't. I wish you were happier. I wish you didn't have two dumb men living with you who were not responsible adults. I wish you had a good job with healthcare that still afforded you the freedom you wish to have. I'm sorry you don't have friends that are around ever. I can't imagine having to beg friends to make plans. I know you love living where you live but maybe it's time to move, even if its just to a more populous area in CO where there are more job opportunities and more reliable roommates. I don't know really. What I do know though is if you aren't happy, you're the only one who can change that. Call me if you want to chat. Miss you.
I dunno what the answer is either. I think that's the most frustrating part. If I knew what had to be done I would have a goal to work towards. I feel like my expectations aren't that high, but obviously they are or they would be more easily attainable. I have a new job that has potential provided I don't end up hating it. We'll see, I'm trying something different. When my roommate moves out I don't think I'll get another one. I don't think I'll live with another boyfriend unless he plans on marrying me either. Why put up with the bullshit if there's not gonna be a reward ;) I've thought about finding a better job in Denver... I could even commute if it was only 3 days a week or something (it's only an hour) and I have people I could stay with on occasion if I don't wanna drive. Then I can do something part time here also... or if it paid enough just work 3 days, I dunno. Things to think about. I just feel stuck as opposed to getting ahead. I'm not entirely in a bad position... Just stuck. I wish we could hang out. I'
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oh, and in October I have a plan to take a little trip to the desert for a week, you could come for that... actually I would love if you came for that, I think then you would see why as hard as it is here I don't want to go anywhere else.
The school year is hard because it's when most of our events are. However, if I gave sufficient notice and there weren't any events right around that time, I could probably go. I don't think I could take a month though :( I would love to see Australia and New Zealand, but the most I could probably get is two weeks. As for October, I have a big event on the 19th, so I don't know if I could go unless it was after that. I would like to see the desert though. I've never been aside from the brief amount of time I spent in Las Vegas and in Phoenix (which are really cities in the desert :P). I have applied for a new job on campus though, so if I get that I don't know what my schedule will be like. Here's hoping for a better position though
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