a stepping stone
Yesterday was, I feel, something of a stepping stone day, a transitional day.
I got a lot of stuff done, came to a couple of important realisations about things and got on with stuff. Conversely I can't help hating myself a little for having upset someone I care about - even if it was completely unintentional. However I haven't panicked, and am trusting that this person won't walk away over that. I certainly hope not though or I've got my intuition WAY off. Have had the bad month when it comes to moon-cycles - I.e the painful one which makes me relatively hormonal, but does last a lot less long than usual. I have another theory as to why this one has (almost) passed so quickly but I'll keep that to myself. So yeah, lots of cramps, made better in the first couple of days, probable aiding and abetting in me getting nightmares, and culminating in a bout of insecurity and teariness yesterday evening. Ended up sobbing my way through Doctor Who, despite knowing it was a happy ending, the feelings portrayed really got to me, however this time, there was no bitterness associated with them, which is what makes me think I may have turned a corner.
Today, woke up having slept a little better than expected. Usually falling asleep in the early evening throws me for the night, but I seem to have been OK this time. Should be absolutely fine by tomorrow, as cramps have (touch wood) completely gone.
Today I need to go to the chemist, pick up my prescription, which will also get me away from the infernal dripping of the window...It's unlikely I'll get to see anyone today, so will probably mooch on with other jobs and maybe play some games.
I got a lot of stuff done, came to a couple of important realisations about things and got on with stuff. Conversely I can't help hating myself a little for having upset someone I care about - even if it was completely unintentional. However I haven't panicked, and am trusting that this person won't walk away over that. I certainly hope not though or I've got my intuition WAY off. Have had the bad month when it comes to moon-cycles - I.e the painful one which makes me relatively hormonal, but does last a lot less long than usual. I have another theory as to why this one has (almost) passed so quickly but I'll keep that to myself. So yeah, lots of cramps, made better in the first couple of days, probable aiding and abetting in me getting nightmares, and culminating in a bout of insecurity and teariness yesterday evening. Ended up sobbing my way through Doctor Who, despite knowing it was a happy ending, the feelings portrayed really got to me, however this time, there was no bitterness associated with them, which is what makes me think I may have turned a corner.
Today, woke up having slept a little better than expected. Usually falling asleep in the early evening throws me for the night, but I seem to have been OK this time. Should be absolutely fine by tomorrow, as cramps have (touch wood) completely gone.
Today I need to go to the chemist, pick up my prescription, which will also get me away from the infernal dripping of the window...It's unlikely I'll get to see anyone today, so will probably mooch on with other jobs and maybe play some games.