sigh
Quick post.
Had a bad morning this morning. Council tax help people have thrown out my claim because i didnt return the stuff i was meant to, but i thought i had but i was missing stuff. Big mess and it triggered me off. IU had been going through taking one thing at a time but trying not to stress, Getting a little emotional but trying to keep it in check and bam this just oipened the floodgates for me to lok at where i was.
It's like being in a corn field and i;m picking the corn infront of me and moving onto the next, simple job hey? Then i get an aerial view and see that there is corn all around me for miles and i have to do it all. And all of sudden it all seems impossible. Money, the house, time. Its just too much oij too small a place. So I had a bit of a stitz. And duer to that I have lost this morning :-(
I won;t play wow at the shop tonight I will coem home and make a dent. There is not point staring at the aerial view when i could be down there as i was working as best and as fast i can.Sometimes blinkers are good
One good thing this aerial view has shown me is why mystomach is playing up so. I thought maybe it was my IBS again but couldnt see where any stress was coming from. Looking at the big piucture i see mountains of stress, i;ve been using a mental block on it but that doesnt mean it hasnt been affecting the rest of my body, just not my concious mind.. Right better go, wanna eat something and mediacte bagheera before work and bus is in 6 mionutes. D'oh looks like I;m getting Rice on the CC again
Dans
Had a bad morning this morning. Council tax help people have thrown out my claim because i didnt return the stuff i was meant to, but i thought i had but i was missing stuff. Big mess and it triggered me off. IU had been going through taking one thing at a time but trying not to stress, Getting a little emotional but trying to keep it in check and bam this just oipened the floodgates for me to lok at where i was.
It's like being in a corn field and i;m picking the corn infront of me and moving onto the next, simple job hey? Then i get an aerial view and see that there is corn all around me for miles and i have to do it all. And all of sudden it all seems impossible. Money, the house, time. Its just too much oij too small a place. So I had a bit of a stitz. And duer to that I have lost this morning :-(
I won;t play wow at the shop tonight I will coem home and make a dent. There is not point staring at the aerial view when i could be down there as i was working as best and as fast i can.Sometimes blinkers are good
One good thing this aerial view has shown me is why mystomach is playing up so. I thought maybe it was my IBS again but couldnt see where any stress was coming from. Looking at the big piucture i see mountains of stress, i;ve been using a mental block on it but that doesnt mean it hasnt been affecting the rest of my body, just not my concious mind.. Right better go, wanna eat something and mediacte bagheera before work and bus is in 6 mionutes. D'oh looks like I;m getting Rice on the CC again
Dans