Feel the rain on your skin no onelse can feel it for you
"Things and people are rearly what they seem.......... and when we realize for the first time that we've known this all along but where hopeing with everything that we have in us that it just isn't true............... realy just SUCKS"
So in light of everything that has or hasn't happened this summer I think I have weather fairly well.
The Good:
1.) Still have my faith (soley by the grace of God)
2.) Bonded and lead a group of beautiful and amazing young women
3.) Got my first A/ 4.0 at Samford ever!!
4.) Found some little peices of myself I've been missing (also a few I've been hiding from God)
5.) Have a real adult relationship/ friendship with my Mother
6.) Kept my head about me when I realized that Guy I really wanted to date, Wasn't the same Guy I thought I wanted to date.
7.) Didn't let Jelousy get the best of me
8.) Decided to let God take control (b/c I'm tiered of driving)
9.) Haven't killed anyone yet (though lord Knows there are so many I wish I could right now)
10.) Found out what is going on with my Immune system, Not as bad as we thought :)
11.) realized that I'm holding back in so many ways
The Bad:
1.) Broke up with someone I wasn't dating (if you can figure it out clue me in b/c I'm still trying to figure it out ;) )
2.) Still argue with my dad
3.) still have fancial trouble ( but honestly I think that will be there till I'm a doctor)
4.) Broke a promise to myself
5.) ended up in a no commitment relationship even after I decided I didn't want it
6.) Lost a special part of my heart (don't really believe love exsists.... well at least not for me anyways)
7.) AM becoming a bit cold and cold hearted
8.) decided to close myself off except to my select few (too tiered of getting hurt and I'm not doing it anymore there's no point)
9.) put to much hope in that Person I wanted to date
10.) put to much hope in that other person I thought was something they aren't
11.) Got really tiered
12.) stoped praying and careing
The Ugly:
1.) alone/ lonely (nothing new)
2.) Sick of people who Take and never even ask how you are
3.) Sick of all the crap tht people talk about (for once a real conversation would be nice)
4.) bored with my life and faith
5.) Sick of trying
6.) To tiered to give a damn about anything
7.) wish I were nieve and never really knew any truth
8.) Not really likeing myself (I hate looking in the mirror)
9.) wishing I could just run away and disapper
10.) dissipointed in alot of people and myself
11.) Missing the select few entierly too much
12.) wishing I could just lose myself in something actually anything at the moment.
so yeah............. that's about it...... and who knows maybe it'll change but right now that's about it.
Just once I need someone to be here for me.............. and yeah haven't found that person yet..... Because right now Lord you don't seem like your here.
So in light of everything that has or hasn't happened this summer I think I have weather fairly well.
The Good:
1.) Still have my faith (soley by the grace of God)
2.) Bonded and lead a group of beautiful and amazing young women
3.) Got my first A/ 4.0 at Samford ever!!
4.) Found some little peices of myself I've been missing (also a few I've been hiding from God)
5.) Have a real adult relationship/ friendship with my Mother
6.) Kept my head about me when I realized that Guy I really wanted to date, Wasn't the same Guy I thought I wanted to date.
7.) Didn't let Jelousy get the best of me
8.) Decided to let God take control (b/c I'm tiered of driving)
9.) Haven't killed anyone yet (though lord Knows there are so many I wish I could right now)
10.) Found out what is going on with my Immune system, Not as bad as we thought :)
11.) realized that I'm holding back in so many ways
The Bad:
1.) Broke up with someone I wasn't dating (if you can figure it out clue me in b/c I'm still trying to figure it out ;) )
2.) Still argue with my dad
3.) still have fancial trouble ( but honestly I think that will be there till I'm a doctor)
4.) Broke a promise to myself
5.) ended up in a no commitment relationship even after I decided I didn't want it
6.) Lost a special part of my heart (don't really believe love exsists.... well at least not for me anyways)
7.) AM becoming a bit cold and cold hearted
8.) decided to close myself off except to my select few (too tiered of getting hurt and I'm not doing it anymore there's no point)
9.) put to much hope in that Person I wanted to date
10.) put to much hope in that other person I thought was something they aren't
11.) Got really tiered
12.) stoped praying and careing
The Ugly:
1.) alone/ lonely (nothing new)
2.) Sick of people who Take and never even ask how you are
3.) Sick of all the crap tht people talk about (for once a real conversation would be nice)
4.) bored with my life and faith
5.) Sick of trying
6.) To tiered to give a damn about anything
7.) wish I were nieve and never really knew any truth
8.) Not really likeing myself (I hate looking in the mirror)
9.) wishing I could just run away and disapper
10.) dissipointed in alot of people and myself
11.) Missing the select few entierly too much
12.) wishing I could just lose myself in something actually anything at the moment.
so yeah............. that's about it...... and who knows maybe it'll change but right now that's about it.
Just once I need someone to be here for me.............. and yeah haven't found that person yet..... Because right now Lord you don't seem like your here.