icon: "self-love (me, sitting in the crook of the trunk of a large tree, hugging myself and leaning my head back in a relaxed way)"I learned shame about my scent from my biofamily and my first lover (who I was with for 8 years). They complained about my smell, or told me about it in lowered embarrassed voices, and so I washed it off, chemically ( Read more... )

Note: in the comments of this post, I was wrong. Black Phoenix Alchemy Lab IS orientalist and I didn't know what that was. I got defensive rather than listening to the wisdom and knowledge of a person of color about things that affect their daily life. My behavior was shameful and blocked me off from learning and growing. Since this I have made the ( Read more... )

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A few weeks ago I rearranged our bedroom, turning it from a place I hated to a place I love! Ben is much happier too -- now it feels like we have two rooms instead of only the living room. I created a photo-tour of my bedroom, because a video would require clothing due to the mirrors. And this is easier!

( photo-tour of my bedroom )

Thank you all so very very much. Your comments and especially your prayers/positive thoughts/energies really made a difference. I had been trying so hard to be positive, and just couldn't manage it. I don't know what it was, but it's mostly gone now. Thank you ( Read more... )