feeling urges for friend changes / intimacy practice planning / bad dreams / relationship updates

[belenen]

icon: "exuviate (photo of a dragonfly with shimmery green wings after its last metamorphosis, standing next to its previous exoskeleton)"I haven't felt fully seen by someone other than Topaz in a long time and I yearn for that. I don't know if I'm just bad at sharing or if most people have to feel romantic to actually try to see someone or if

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[callmebee]

I think making friends as an adult is one of the most difficult things a person can do

[fragbert]

...I don't feel so intrusive (which doesn't come from you, I'm fearful of crossing boundaries and saying the "wrong thing")...

This is exactly how I feel as well.

[freshwaterdame]

I think making friends as an adult is one of the most difficult things a person can do.

This is really so true. I gets harder and harder.

[aubkabob]

I have moved so much in life that it's difficult for me to build lasting relationships. It's gotten to the point where if I don't find myself in regular "forced" interactions with someone, it's extremely hard to cultivate deeper relationships. It's almost as if I give up on friendship easily because I'm so used to a bubble of loved ones dispersing, and although I have wanted to change this, it's a difficult thing to make myself feel as if I'm worthy to ask for interactions. It's never that I don't think that the other person isn't worthy of my precious time, it's more that I don't want to bother anyone (even if they don't see it as a bother). Two landmarks in the last year helped to reinforce this: graduating from nursing school and quitting my retail job of 11 years. While in nursing school, you're in the academic trenches with 47 other people in your cohort and you feel that there's nothing in the world that could keep you from having that connection.... only to graduate and discover that nursing school was the ONLY thing you

[belenen]

I've always wanted to reach out and be closer to you, but something always held me back. Shyness maybe? Fear that I'd be rejected by someone I think is really awesome? I don't know. Most of the time I chalked it up to timing though. Universes of people who are meant to know each other often circle, and circle, and circle. . . Until the gradual variations of each person's vibrations finally bring them closer. I kind of feel that way right now.

I feel just the same! and I am very happy that you do too. I'm planning another Truth or Truth soon, and I want you to be able to join! what is your schedule like? (you can email me at belenen at gmail if you prefer)

*happy grin!*