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i feel like everytime i even look or write on in this thing is when im livid. Then i read other peoples and they are always sayin the best about life. i never have anything good to say about life. When good things happen in my life i never care to even notice its a good thing. i think thats my problem. i always let the good things in my life slip right past me. Then im completely shocked when i dont have that good thing anymore. But its all me, all my fault. i let every good thing go, or just without even realizing it, push it away. I hate my cell, its the biggest piece of shit ever, i never get calls or messages. im sure its casued from me throwing it half way across the room when intoxicated. speaking of intoxication..i have an mip. woo, fuckin clawson cops can suck it. Who the fuck even tries to give out 30 mips in a night.. go away and go bust some people who drive drunk we were simply just having a good time and now you've gone and fucked up my summer. fuckin assholes. Yeah i have court may 9th to figure it alllll out, basically the first week of my summer. Now i either cant go to parties.. or party sober and im pretty sure ive never done that in a lifetime.
fuuuck.
Tomorrows saras birthday, shes my best friend. we've really grown apart tho. no real reason.. just have. kinda sucks, actually really shitty. but thats life, and again i will move on. I really need to start thinking about what i want to do when i "grow up" i was thinking about wedding planner. it really intrests me and i heard theres a wide variety of job opps. who knows. i hate college, i never go to class. So if i fail, i swear i better not be surprised. i need to get my act together and start concentrating on the things that matter.. for the past 6 months ive concentrated on the 100% wrong thing. fing boy. hopefully i can get a job that i actually like this summer.. but still have enough time to get a tan.
Lately all ive wanted to do was go shopping and get a manicure. but of course.. with no job, no funds, cell phone bill, and mip.. i cant even come close to either.
one of my classes end this thursday. i feel like im just gonna slack off all tuesday and thursday now becasue i have no reason to get up and shower..i really need a job and with college kids coming home.. they are gonna go fast i really need to get a move on things or im gonna have an even more shitty summer then expected.
i think i just might go get in the shower, jump in my car and try to look around for jobs.. i swear i say this at least 30 times a day. Im such a lazy piece of shit. i need a slap in the face or something.. i need a reality check, SOMETHING.
fuuuck.
Tomorrows saras birthday, shes my best friend. we've really grown apart tho. no real reason.. just have. kinda sucks, actually really shitty. but thats life, and again i will move on. I really need to start thinking about what i want to do when i "grow up" i was thinking about wedding planner. it really intrests me and i heard theres a wide variety of job opps. who knows. i hate college, i never go to class. So if i fail, i swear i better not be surprised. i need to get my act together and start concentrating on the things that matter.. for the past 6 months ive concentrated on the 100% wrong thing. fing boy. hopefully i can get a job that i actually like this summer.. but still have enough time to get a tan.
Lately all ive wanted to do was go shopping and get a manicure. but of course.. with no job, no funds, cell phone bill, and mip.. i cant even come close to either.
one of my classes end this thursday. i feel like im just gonna slack off all tuesday and thursday now becasue i have no reason to get up and shower..i really need a job and with college kids coming home.. they are gonna go fast i really need to get a move on things or im gonna have an even more shitty summer then expected.
i think i just might go get in the shower, jump in my car and try to look around for jobs.. i swear i say this at least 30 times a day. Im such a lazy piece of shit. i need a slap in the face or something.. i need a reality check, SOMETHING.