Who knows where the time goes
I think my heart is starting to realize that it's really over between Chris and I. I know I'm the one that ended it but it's still been really hard, because I had to wean myself off of his company and amazing friendship. That's what I miss the most, being able to tell him almost everything. But I guess as one door closes another door opens, right? I just have been having trouble finding doors they all look like windows lately.
But in the meantime as I'm figuring everything out I've been having a good time with my friends. I feel like I'm always running around doing something and now with Rachel getting married in 5 weeks and all the plans for that I have no spare time. All I really want to do is sleep. Find a warm sandy beach next to sparkling blue waters and fall asleep listening to the sound of the ocean. Then I wake up and look around and I'm staring at the tan and blue walls of my office and the stark industrialness of it all. I don't think I was ever meant to be an engineer... I feel like I'm better suited for something much more creative and exciting. But here I still sit in my ergonomic chair typing on my ergonomic keyboard dreaming about doing something else.
But in the meantime as I'm figuring everything out I've been having a good time with my friends. I feel like I'm always running around doing something and now with Rachel getting married in 5 weeks and all the plans for that I have no spare time. All I really want to do is sleep. Find a warm sandy beach next to sparkling blue waters and fall asleep listening to the sound of the ocean. Then I wake up and look around and I'm staring at the tan and blue walls of my office and the stark industrialness of it all. I don't think I was ever meant to be an engineer... I feel like I'm better suited for something much more creative and exciting. But here I still sit in my ergonomic chair typing on my ergonomic keyboard dreaming about doing something else.