today, i came to a realization... a few, actually.

1) fuck it. fuck it, because im a dude, and i want my stupid body to understand that, so fuck it. fuck trying to hide it and being in denial. fuck struggling. why not embrace it like its an amazing positive thing, rather than a confusing, difficult thing like it usually is? im going to come out to ( Read more... )

it's hard now, being in the wrong body, but in a way, for everyone, if i could just pretend along with everyone, it's easier, too.
if i transition, will it be easier at all? or just harder having to go through everything? sure, i'll feel more right in my body, but will i ever be able to be happy?
either way?
truly, honestly happy?