jobless.
I wish I had a parachute
Because I’m falling bad for you
And I can see the ground approaching now
But I’m not sure what to do
I feel like a pinata won't you take a swing at me
If you could just crack the shell open
I think inside you would find......something sweet.
And I hear you like a hunter now
Your footsteps in the leaves
And I would gladly leave my hiding place
So I'm hoping to be seen.
So let your arrow fly
And see I’m well within your aim
And lay your traps for a thousand miles
And please don’t let me......escape.
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i've listened to that song like 90 times today. i'm in love.
so i lost my job yesterday. because someone tattled on me. i was still in the wrong so i guess it's my fault. no, it is my fault... and that's what sucks. i have nobody to blame for this but myself. i still haven't told my family. i'm not sure how i'm going to either. it has to be done... but maybe i'll wait till after vacation. i don't need the added stress of a family that is disappointed. i'm already so ashamed of myself already. i've held a steady job since i was 14 (go child labor) and i've never once been fired or without a job. i'm trying to take it with a grain of salt and relax for a few days because there's not much i can do till after vacation (yes drew is still forcing me to go... he says i need it) but i can't relax. i'm stressed to the max about bills and food and gas and probably most of all (yes above bills ...lol) cigarettes... i'm stressed and now i won't be able to afford what calms me down. god help me, i may kill someone.
i've cried so much in this past day and a half. probably more than i have in a year or so. thank god drew bought me ice cream... i may have flooded the whole damn town with my tears. he's the best. i don't know what i would do without that kid.
Because I’m falling bad for you
And I can see the ground approaching now
But I’m not sure what to do
I feel like a pinata won't you take a swing at me
If you could just crack the shell open
I think inside you would find......something sweet.
And I hear you like a hunter now
Your footsteps in the leaves
And I would gladly leave my hiding place
So I'm hoping to be seen.
So let your arrow fly
And see I’m well within your aim
And lay your traps for a thousand miles
And please don’t let me......escape.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
i've listened to that song like 90 times today. i'm in love.
so i lost my job yesterday. because someone tattled on me. i was still in the wrong so i guess it's my fault. no, it is my fault... and that's what sucks. i have nobody to blame for this but myself. i still haven't told my family. i'm not sure how i'm going to either. it has to be done... but maybe i'll wait till after vacation. i don't need the added stress of a family that is disappointed. i'm already so ashamed of myself already. i've held a steady job since i was 14 (go child labor) and i've never once been fired or without a job. i'm trying to take it with a grain of salt and relax for a few days because there's not much i can do till after vacation (yes drew is still forcing me to go... he says i need it) but i can't relax. i'm stressed to the max about bills and food and gas and probably most of all (yes above bills ...lol) cigarettes... i'm stressed and now i won't be able to afford what calms me down. god help me, i may kill someone.
i've cried so much in this past day and a half. probably more than i have in a year or so. thank god drew bought me ice cream... i may have flooded the whole damn town with my tears. he's the best. i don't know what i would do without that kid.