I hate not knowing
Why is it that when this all started, I didn't think I would miss him this much once we both went home? When have I ever been emotionally detached...
And I could get over him if I knew I was never going to see him again, but there's still that eminent possibility, not to mention his recent text messages (that I'd really like to know why he sent, for real, not just the reason I hope he sent them) that I'll see him again and that he'll decide to come back to ASU. I'm looking to the future now, excited to see what's going to happen. whatever it is, I can handle it, but I WANT TO KNOW. I'm afraid to get my hopes up too much because the fallout will suck. That's something I learned this year: the more you want it, the worse it hurts when you can't have it. If he doesn't come back, I'll have disappointment to bear.
Its too bad I lack experience in this department because I'm not sure what I should do, and worse, I don't think there's a whole lot to do anyway. Its one of those things that if its meant to happen, it will and if it isn't meant to happen, it won't....
but I really want it to.
I miss you
And I could get over him if I knew I was never going to see him again, but there's still that eminent possibility, not to mention his recent text messages (that I'd really like to know why he sent, for real, not just the reason I hope he sent them) that I'll see him again and that he'll decide to come back to ASU. I'm looking to the future now, excited to see what's going to happen. whatever it is, I can handle it, but I WANT TO KNOW. I'm afraid to get my hopes up too much because the fallout will suck. That's something I learned this year: the more you want it, the worse it hurts when you can't have it. If he doesn't come back, I'll have disappointment to bear.
Its too bad I lack experience in this department because I'm not sure what I should do, and worse, I don't think there's a whole lot to do anyway. Its one of those things that if its meant to happen, it will and if it isn't meant to happen, it won't....
but I really want it to.
I miss you