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i felt it today. i felt the warmth. everything came together. it was one of the days that you feel like you can sit back and watch everyone. and everyone is happy. its the opposite of that feeling of floating through the day as an observer, which is the worst. im so happy. today was my moms birthday. school was fun. thanks jessica a for making sure i was okay. so i signed a bunch of yearbooks today and had peeps sign my book. wow. today was the last day 6 ever. day 6's i owned you. i beat you. i cant even describe the warmth i felt today. there was this warm breeze i guess. after school jordan came over, and we worked on this bullshit psych project, but i dont care, its the last project ill ever have to do. talking with taylor, perfecting this thing. then jordan left, and i had a great talk with jessica w. shes so great. she always makes me feel that warmth. and what else..hmmm. i went to pomponee or something for my mommies birthday. my family is so fucking awesome. im so lucky. and the whole time, i could only think, what did i do to deserve this. im so lucky. happy birthday mom. i love you so much. the strength you gave me...its, its hard to show it back to you. but i can assure you with the utmost certainty that i will redirect all the warmth you gave me to my children. then back home. im radiating. i feel so amazing. im online right now, and everybody on my buddylist is not only online, but active. not one away message. thank you for the warmth. thank you greg, jordan, jessica a, jessica w, brian, taylor, brian, jon and shaya. i feel so great and i owe all of you. and thanks jenna (my sister). weve become so close over these last months. im gonna miss you so fucking much. i love you. i convinced her to go to viewpoint finally. shes scared that she wont make it, but shes so smart, and she has so much potential. shes going to be such an amazing person. peace biznatches