Fate Meets Destiny: Chapter Nineteen
Title: Fate Meets Destiny
Author: bbmgirlfan
Pairing: Ennis/Jack (AU/AU)
Rating: PG-13
Disclaimer: just playing with the boys, they don't belong to me
Summary: Jack and Ennis grew up together and even went to the same college before moving back home to take over each family's business. They became roommates but that's all they were! Or, is it?
Note: My friend--still not available to help with the challenging love scene you will read in this chapter. So thank God for camillar who was a wonderful help!!! Yay!
This is the last chapter, except for the epilogue and an afterthought that I wrote after I was sure I was finished. I'll post them next week.
I just want to say that I cannot find adequate words to express my gratitude for all of you who have been reading and giving me such encouraging feedback! Hearing from you and talking with you about the story and about this Jack and this Ennis has been such a joy.
Thank you all so much!!
*I especially want to thank Tammy whose comments I treasure! They are like apple pie with vanilla ice cream and whipped cream on top. After every chapter I pick some comments to save to encourage me in the future in case I am brave enough to try writing again. I always save yours, Tammy!!
BTW, if you need a reminder about where we were in the story, here's the link for Chapter Eighteen: bbmgirlfan.livejournal.com/9016.html
Chapter Nineteen
As Ennis awoke, he could tell even before he opened his eyes that it was not yet morning but that dawn was about to break. Ennis could feel Jack's energy next to him and as he rolled over in his direction and opened his eyes, he saw that Jack was awake already and apparently had been watching him.
Their eyes met and Jack's softened and filled with tenderness.
"Hi." Ennis said shyly.
"Hi." Jack responded and reached out a hand to smooth Ennis's hair away from his face.
They stared at each other for a moment as Jack's hand lingered on Ennis's face. Jack seemed to be searching his eyes for something and as a radiant smile beamed its way across his face, Ennis figured he must have seen what he wanted.
"You love me!" Jack told him.
Ennis nodded. "I do," he agreed, blushing.
"What happened?" Jack asked. "What changed?"
Ennis sighed. "I missed you!" he began. "That's about the size of it, I guess." he said, looking into Jack's eyes. "We were hanging out, spending time together, but something was missing. Something wasn't right!"
"So I had this push-pull thing going on inside me," he continued.
"I was lonely for you, but I was determined I wasn't going to be gay." he said, rolling his eyes.
"How'd that work for you?"
"Shut up!"
Ennis grinned at Jack's smirk. "I think I knew that what we had wasn't going to go away. I knew I couldn't wish it away. And ... in my mind, you belonged to me. But I was scared to admit that I belonged to you, too."
Jack smiled in response, listening intently as he stared into those eyes that were staring back at him.
Ennis sighed. "I didn't want to hurt my parents. And I didn't want to step off the path they'd laid out for me."
"But..." Ennis began, "Well, remember that night you came home and I was watching that DVD? And I got to the episode where the old guy admits he's lived his whole life straight?"
Jack nodded. "Yeah."
"And then he said something about it being too late to start his life over. Remember that?" Ennis asked. Jack nodded again.
"Well, I kept thinking about that. I want my parents to be proud of me. And I don't want to disappoint them. But I can't sacrifice my whole life for them! I don't want to be 60 or 70, looking back on my life with regret." Ennis said.
"And I realized that who they want to think I am and who I actually am are two different people. So I decided I would have to give up being the mirage they think they see, even if that's what would make them happy, and just be me." Ennis winked, "'Cause that's the only way I can be happy!"
"You know what I mean?" he asked. Jack nodded, nearly overcome with the realization that this was really happening, that the love of his life had come to him, and was sure about it. It felt like a dream but he was pretty sure he was awake.
Tears filled Jack's eyes and Ennis used his thumb to catch one that spilled over and then stroked his hand across Jack's cheek.
"So it's gonna be you and me?" he asked tremulously, lips against Ennis's. Ennis nodded and began kissing him back...
"I love you!" Jack offered shyly between kisses.
"I love you, too, baby!"
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Sunshine crept quietly into the room as they stared into each other's eyes, bringing light into the room and kissing their bodies with a golden glow. The air seemed charged as they smiled and softly began to touch, knowing that they had all the time they needed and that this time, they weren't going to stop.
"I've made you wait," Ennis admitted as he tenderly brushed a lock of hair away from Jack's forehead. "But I was making myself wait, too!" he said as he brushed Jack's cheek with his thumb.
"I know." Jack said, smiling sweetly as he lifted Ennis's hand and placed a kiss right in the middle of his palm.
As Jack let go, he had a moment's worry about how they were going to do what they were planning to do, about what would happen first and who would do what and ... while Jack had been worrying, Ennis's hand had drifted across his chest and landed softly on a nipple. "Come here," he beckoned.
As they began to kiss, feeling the warmth of each other's skin and the delight of full-body connection, Jack was distracted from his worry and began to just enjoy the moment.
Their lips met and they began to suck and lick, Ennis shuddering as their tongues touched and began to tangle. "Mine!" he thought as his hands pressed hard on Jack's back to pull him in closer.
Jack slid his hand into Ennis's hair to deepen the angle of their kiss. Then he stroked and grabbed and squeezed his way across Ennis's shoulders, down his back and inside the waistband of his briefs. The delicious shock of the friction that resulted made them both groan.
Without breaking eye contact or their sexy kiss, Ennis pushed down on Jack's shoulder, moving with him so that he covered him like a blanket. He began to grind slowly against him as Jack's hips rose to meet his. Lights were going off behind Jack's eyes as he framed Ennis's face and began to move with more urgency.
"Turn over!" Ennis told him. Jack did, noticing for the first time the small bag on the bedside table that hadn't been there when he went to bed the night before. Seeing it increased both his nervousness and his anticipation.
Ennis began kissing his way down Jack's back, following Jack's boxers as he slowly removed them. Jack was leaking & hunching the bed a little as Ennis licked his way back up, parting his cheeks to linger for quite a while in the middle.
"Oh my god!" Jack kept saying, totally amazed that something he'd read about online felt this wonderful.
By the time Ennis finished, Jack's anticipation had gained the lead on his nervousness and he knew he did not want to wait another minute. "Ennis!" he said while looking over his shoulder at him.
A naughty grin accompanied Ennis's "Hmm?"
"Fuck me!" he demanded.
"Don't rush me!" was Ennis's response as he poked around carefully in what Jack knew was an attempt to prepare him. Jack figured that meant he'd be waiting at least a few more minutes and was worried he'd have his own thing going with the bed if Ennis didn't hurry up.
Not that what he was doing back there wasn't feeling pretty damn good. But Jack was afraid he wouldn't last and he wanted to come with Ennis inside him.
So he held out and minutes later, Ennis kissed him quickly, winked at him, and said, "Here I come!"
Little by little, Ennis pushed inside him. And it hurt! Jack felt like he was being invaded by a machine gun and he wondered how gay guys ever managed to have a decent sexual relationship. Ennis tentatively began to move, but very slowly.
At 1st, Jack was just breathing slowly, in and out, trying to relax as much as he could. And then Ennis shifted, just slightly and the electricity Jack felt was like a moment of heaven in the middle of hell. "Oh, god, do that again!" Jack requested.
He heard Ennis chuckle behind him and then lost all rational thought as Ennis hit that exact same spot again.
Though there was still some pain, it was as if it had receded to the background, pushed back by this amazing pleasure Jack was feeling. Ennis reached around to grab him, stroking in concert with his thrusts.
Within minutes, Jack was coming all over Ennis's hand and Ennis was not far behind him. Collapsing briefly on top of him, Ennis placed a tender kiss on Jack's shoulder before gently disengaging. They fell asleep facing each other, held in each other's arms, "I love you!" their last words before drifting off to sleep.
Epilogue to follow soon...
Note: TV reference is to Brothers and Sisters.