Meh.. thinking
Today was a mix of good and bad. School went alright. Classes were easy, tests were easy, got sweets... lunch wasn't that good since Taylor wasn't there, but I said hi to Meghan again, and she said hi back. So that was nice- I got to hear her voice.. though I don't remember it that well...
Had an ortho appointment today. Consultation to tell me what kind of hell I'm gonna have for the next two or so years. They explained to me about the palate expander 'cause my mouth is too freaking small, the spacers, the bite plate, the metal stuff.. and it all sounds so horrible. I mean, it was kinda cool, because I got to see my x-rays/molds, and it was cool seeing my teeth in 3D out of my mouth, and I could see the earring I was wearing in my x-ray. So.. it was a bit okay. But when I'm told about all this stuff that I have to do, it all sounds so scary and unnatural, and why do I have to do it? Yeah, my mouth will look "normal," but what if I don't care? Yeah, it's hard to brush my teeth- I've been getting better... I just don't feel like it'll be worth it- all that pain and annoyance for straight teeth? Who gives a damn? >.< I know I might be appreciative afterwards, but right now I don't care.
It's all so unnatural and scary. Who came up with it? Gluing metal and torture-device-looking contraptions into your mouth. What the heck? Is having not straight teeth such a bad thing? *sigh* I don't get the evil palate expander from hell until February ish... but I don't want to get it. I don't want to be in highschool and have it- everybody had them in middle school- I barely see anybody with them now, and I'll have them at least until junior year. They're not pretty at ALL- what if I can't sing? I can't live if I can't sing. They aren't attractive at all- this may sound really shallow, but if nobody loves me now, who's going to love me with metal in my mouth? I know that may not be a justified worry, but it is a worry. And I'm scared. I really don't want to do this.
Had an ortho appointment today. Consultation to tell me what kind of hell I'm gonna have for the next two or so years. They explained to me about the palate expander 'cause my mouth is too freaking small, the spacers, the bite plate, the metal stuff.. and it all sounds so horrible. I mean, it was kinda cool, because I got to see my x-rays/molds, and it was cool seeing my teeth in 3D out of my mouth, and I could see the earring I was wearing in my x-ray. So.. it was a bit okay. But when I'm told about all this stuff that I have to do, it all sounds so scary and unnatural, and why do I have to do it? Yeah, my mouth will look "normal," but what if I don't care? Yeah, it's hard to brush my teeth- I've been getting better... I just don't feel like it'll be worth it- all that pain and annoyance for straight teeth? Who gives a damn? >.< I know I might be appreciative afterwards, but right now I don't care.
It's all so unnatural and scary. Who came up with it? Gluing metal and torture-device-looking contraptions into your mouth. What the heck? Is having not straight teeth such a bad thing? *sigh* I don't get the evil palate expander from hell until February ish... but I don't want to get it. I don't want to be in highschool and have it- everybody had them in middle school- I barely see anybody with them now, and I'll have them at least until junior year. They're not pretty at ALL- what if I can't sing? I can't live if I can't sing. They aren't attractive at all- this may sound really shallow, but if nobody loves me now, who's going to love me with metal in my mouth? I know that may not be a justified worry, but it is a worry. And I'm scared. I really don't want to do this.