The holidays would have been nice. I have an amazing girlfriend who welcomed me into her home to spend Christmas. Her family was welcoming and I didn't feel as out of place as I thought I would. I was kind of an outsider, but her family was nice to me. I would have had an amazing New Years Eve, I had a few friends over and had a nice little get ( Read more... )

Been thinking this evening about the past. A good friend is going through some issues, dealing with a manic boyfriend. I like to keep my dad between the farthest cracks in my mind. He doesn't surface very often. But talking with her about her current issues brought up my past issues.

This year. This last year has been the worst year of my life. My mom died and it altered my world. Who I thought I was, I was not. I keep changing every day, trying to find myself and it only gets more confusing. I have never been so anxiety strife. I sometimes wonder where it comes from and I remind myself that I have a million jobs while trying ( Read more... )

Utah.
Salt Lake City.
Washington.
Seattle.
Ana.
Ana.
Ana?

Know me three months ago, know not the same person. Ask me then if I thought I could have evolved so much in such a minute time period. No ( Read more... )

Absolutely, positively, I can honestly say at this very moment that I hate my life right now.

After being here four months in Seattle (which by the way hasn't felt like four months yet), I am finally getting my very OWN place! I have been staying in my brothers small apartment in a room that is the size of a twin bed. I'm not complaining, I've liked living here and rent free, but it will be nice to have my own space. YAY! I'm excited. I'm ( Read more... )

So I'm a human lab rat. It's really not so bad. I haven't got any side affects so far. Other than my arm being a little sore from blood being taken 13 times yesterday, all is good. All I've been doing is reading, internet surfing, watching movies, and sleeping. And getting fed for free (the food isn't that bad either). ZzZzZz...

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I leave in a week. Wow. That's all I have to say.