Sarah said this to me lastnight: “tam, one thing I learned from you is to be me and to be aware of what’s going on around me. Ie: voting and having a voice ( Read more... )

Wow do I get distracted every time I’m posting. I just keep writing a few sentences and stop, I’ve been meaning to put this entry together for days.

Things are a little bit sucky right now. I’m more frustrated than anything. I finally brought it up with Sarah. She said no. She has no interest in getting back together with me. Considering her recent ( Read more... )

From a couple days ago, just realized I forgot to post this.

Sarah broke her foot. I went to her game last Monday night because I wanted to return the support she gave me at the awards and I’m glad I did. Her dad (who was visiting), brother and his girlfriend were also there. They showed up quite late like it was no big deal. I was getting so ( Read more... )

I’m most definitely only more confused than ever. Sarah blew off her hockey game to come see me host the awards last night. She said she would be at the game and instead at the last minute, she came to support me instead. This is a very big deal. As I said two posts ago, she never, ever breaks commitments. Not for me, not for anything. I thought. I ( Read more... )

I figured out what I want, but I don’t think I can have it. I don’t even know if it’s good for me. It’s what I want, but not what I need. Doesn’t seem to make me feel the way I wish it did, the way I want it to.

I’m not a priority. Never will be. Not when there are rules to follow and meaningless things to stick to. Everything else will come first. ( Read more... )

Sarah and I went to see Baby Mama today at West Ed. It’s totally one of those movies that makes you kind of sad at the end because it had the potential to be a lot better than it was. Some of it was incredibly hilarious, but many jokes fell flat. It didn’t seem particularly clear on it’s intended audience, with the Tina Fey/Weekend Update/Mean ( Read more... )

Steroids are evil and I’m glad I’m almost done them. They didn’t help anything and they’ve made me ridiculously sensitive to sunlight. I was already pale enough to get close to setting on fire when I walked outside but it’s actually gotten a lot worse and I got two mega sunburns in two days and a bit of heat stroke, again. And I’m getting pudgy. ( Read more... )

Writing a column is so far down the list of things I’d like to be doing right now it’s tied with listening to Nickleback or getting repetedly kicked in the stomach. I can’t concetrate, I can’t think, I can’t care or be creative, I’ve got nothing ( Read more... )

There was stuff I wanted to talk about but mostly nothing has changed today. I got a bit of anger out playing some sports and otherwise I’ve been in a daze. Guess I’m numb right now. I don’t know how to wrap my brain around this, so I seem to have shut off. But it’s better than the crying ( Read more... )

I don’t want to have to tell the story a thousand times (5 people have already asked as I typed this) so here it is: I got dumped. I don’t know why. I had no idea it was coming. I feel like I was hit by a truck and I don’t know how to deal with it at all. I can’t stress this enough, it was more out of the blue than I can possibly articulate ( Read more... )