Muszę wypruć flaki swoim wynurzeniom egzystencjalnym, bo szlag mnie już trafia. Nie mam ochoty nawet wyjść z pokoju ( Read more... )

A close friend will always tell you the truth between the lines but it just might be hurtful to know how you are seen by them. As if they didn't really know you, as if they weren't aware of your reality.
I'm kind of sad now.

it may sound weird, but i just thought i feel like a feral pet. not a wild thing to be tamed, more like a puppy or a kitty from a shelter that needs to be adopted and taught to be near humans, to love and trust again 'cause i don't know how. i'm reading some stupid manga and i want that stuff badly. it's been years now. whatever.

I always save my works every few minutes. This time I forgot, and what? When I was about to save a finished project, PHOTOSHOP CRASHED!!!!! ;_______________________________;
I HATE TODAY! And I hate the whole 2010 for that matter, WHAT A SHITTY YEAR THIS IS!!! >(((

And no Vampire Diaries this week and 2 next as well. Pffff.

It takes me years to get an absolute close friend. We need to get to know each other, we need to see we have stuff in common, I need to learn to trust them, I need to see what I'm able to say to them and I should keep to myself, or what to say not to offend them. Then we spend a year or two having a tight relationship, talk everyday, share secrets ( Read more... )

Haha, znów trafiłam przypadkiem na jakąś recenzję w sieci na temat tego co zdążyłam wydać, znów mnie zjechali i to równiutko XD aż chce się zabierać do czegokolwiek, normalnie _^_

(again, I run across some review of my published works. again, i've been summed up as a failure of the drawing stage in poland. seriously, makes me want to drop it all)

I hate my life.

today made me realise how alone i am. it's my birthday and i have nobody to go out with. if i organised a party, nobody would come. if someone came it would be not for me but for a free beer. well...

This week made me realised I have no friends close to me to talk to or to hang out with or those I want to hang out with. No one I could call really mine. It's freaking lonely. And it's most likely mostly my fault.