Of Darkness and Spring

[baeconandeggs]

Author: ANONYMOUS
Prompt #: 191
Title: Of Darkness and Spring
Word Counts: 15k
Side Pairing(s): none
Rating: PG
Warning(s): Depression, anxiety and attempted suicide
Disclaimer: The celebrities' names/images are merely borrowed and do not represent who the celebrities are in real life. No offense is intended towards them, their families or friends

Comments

[for_you_i_am]

Hi to whoever wrote this -- it was amazing! I was struck by how much I identified with it, coming from a traditional family myself, even though my own circumstances are different... And the sheer realness of your writing makes me wonder how much of Baekhyun's experience is your own. Anyway, that's none of my business. But I want you to know that this was beautiful, and it touched me deeply. I'm so happy there was hope for them in the end, and if you need it, dear author, I wish the same for you too xx

[lunavelata]

First of all, sorry for the very late reply! Ending the academic year is always terrible...

Thank you very much for your comment and I'm glad you liked the story. It's always nice to know that I managed to write something people can identify with. Like it happens with most fiction, part of it are experiences and things I've felt, and part of it, things I've created inside my head. Not all of Baekhyun's experience is my own, so I'm especially glad it looks as realistic as a topic like this deserves. For the rest of the experience, well, I found my hope long ago, and if I can instill something with stories like this, is that is possible to do so :)

So, well, it makes me very happy you let me know you think it's beautiful and it managed to get to you, and thank you very much for your kindness!

[lucifer_land]

I can understand how this was hard for you to write. Natually. But you managed it in a sensitive and very true way. It was of course sad but lovely to read. It made me think and reflect on my own feelings and of a situation I've been in and as a piece of writing, it has been successful in doing so.

Thank you for writing this and as the previous comment has said, I also hope that if this fic holds any personal sentiment to you, that you have reached or will reach a conclusion such as Baekhyun's. 😌

[lunavelata]

Well, first, I'm sorry for replying so late! Tying up the academic year is a busy labor ^^U

Thank you for your comment, it makes me very glad to know that I've managed to write in a proper way about this topic, that you enjoyed reading it, and thought it was sensitive an realistic. I'm also glad it helped you reflect on some of your experiences, as it's something I also like myself when I'm reading!

And well, not everything that happens in the fic is part of my experience, but some of the things yes, they hold sentiment for me, and I'm happy to say I reached the same conclusion as Baekhyun's. So thank you very much for your kindness, and of course, for commenting! :)

[greeent]

i guess it must have been kind of hard to write about a sensitive topic such as depression. it's not easy to understand and to make people understand what is depression and what goes inside someone's mind when they're depressed. i've been through a pretty bad depression phase and just like baekhyun i have tried committing suicide (twice? thrice?). i know it's not something i should be proud of saying / telling it out loud, but i guess with telling some people about it i feel pretty better knowing that i am so much better and mentally healthier now. it's something i should be embarassed and feel shameful about, but admitting i have been through all that and succeeded fighting the monster aka depression makes me a little stronger mentally and having a little more faith in me and my future. because every thing will get better and we won't always have our days bad. that's what i keep on telling myself ever since i overcame my own depression. ahhhh ahahaha i feel a little silly now for not commenting about your story instead. but i just

[lunavelata]

Oh, no, don't feel silly for talking about your experience! These kind of stories are also for this. Sometimes stories help you realize you're not the only person in the world who's ever feel the way you feel, like if someone can put it into words, then that means people somewhere can understand you, even things as complex and in the end, personal, as depression

[alitalitha]

This' a torment to read that i wanted to jump there from the beginning and be anything close to Baekhyun just to tell him that's okay and he's not alone and perhaps give him some hugs and never let go ㅠㅠ you have no idea how relieved i am in the end of the story bcs GOD HOW YOU MANAGED TO DESCRIBE ALL THE INSECURITIES, THE PAIN, THE FEARS AND THE SORROW SO PAINFULLY REAL!! Now i hope everyone who has been experiencing this kind of problem will find their happiness in the end of the day, just like Baekhyun ;; Tysm for writing this. This' more than just a fanfiction to me. Your story has showed me that we could be the strongest even in the lowest point of our life. And i'll forever note that, thank you :')
Anw, i love how you complicate things on the climax where Chanyeol has to face his own guilt. That was do uncalled for but i think that's what make this story double interesting than what i expected!

[lunavelata]

Thank you so much! I’m so glad you liked my story and found it engaging. I know the feeling, sometimes when I’m reading something I’m also like “whyyy , just lemme hug you and tell you everything’s gonna be ok”. So… I’m happy I managed to bring out those feelings myself

[anonymous]

I had to log out to comment on this anonymously because it's a personal/sensitive topic for me, I hope you understand :)

I've read this fic like months ago and tonight I feel like re-reading it just because I feel really depressed tonight.
do you know that overwhelming feeling when you read something and you can totally, completely relate yourself to it? that's how I feel when I read this fic. I literally cried really hard the first time I read it, and I was like "someone actually understands!" because this fic accurately describes how I've been feeling for the past years it's almost scary lol.
but sadly, I haven't reached the same ending/conclusion as baekhyun and his family did in this fic. but thank you for writing this and giving me a slight, thin sheer of hope that maybe someday I can overcome this :)

I hope you have a great day :)

[lunavelata]

First of all, sorry for replying so late! I'm not good at replying in time to start with, and being this a fic written months ago I don't check it as often