panic attack in frozen foods....
blah Humbug.
Its 2:32 am and yet sleep escapes me. I really wish these well meaning doctors would leave my medications alone. I know they are trying to help but so far the only thing they have managed to do for me is cause me more stress, anxiety and ONE helluva panic attack, which occurred in all places-- the grocery store. Nothing like walking through the frozen food aisle and deciding you don't feel so great... I wasn't sure if it was my heart again or a panic attack which of course made the panic attack much worse. I felt like an idiot as I dug through my purse frantically looking for nitro and or something for anxiety at the same time. I ran across a small amount of xanax I had been hoarding for just such occasion and chewed it verses swallowing it. Anyone who has ever had even a small amount of xanax knows how disgusting it tastes so you can probably imagine my displeasure! My knees were shaking so violently and I felt as if I were going to fall on my face, I could not get out of there fast enough and then had great fear upon driving myself the short distance home. I debated on going to the hospital but changed my mind when my grown daughter didn't answer my phone calls. I had no one to babysit the two little girls I still have at home.
So tired of living this way and yet here I am.
:(
Its 2:32 am and yet sleep escapes me. I really wish these well meaning doctors would leave my medications alone. I know they are trying to help but so far the only thing they have managed to do for me is cause me more stress, anxiety and ONE helluva panic attack, which occurred in all places-- the grocery store. Nothing like walking through the frozen food aisle and deciding you don't feel so great... I wasn't sure if it was my heart again or a panic attack which of course made the panic attack much worse. I felt like an idiot as I dug through my purse frantically looking for nitro and or something for anxiety at the same time. I ran across a small amount of xanax I had been hoarding for just such occasion and chewed it verses swallowing it. Anyone who has ever had even a small amount of xanax knows how disgusting it tastes so you can probably imagine my displeasure! My knees were shaking so violently and I felt as if I were going to fall on my face, I could not get out of there fast enough and then had great fear upon driving myself the short distance home. I debated on going to the hospital but changed my mind when my grown daughter didn't answer my phone calls. I had no one to babysit the two little girls I still have at home.
So tired of living this way and yet here I am.
:(