i opened for hella. they were amazing. winter's here. it's not that i don't like you. well, yes it is. it won't be the same, ufortunately.

time for homework.

the leaves are changing. but the ttemperatures not. you had better be cold and wet by halloween time tulsa. school is stupid. college shit is stupid. i like pretending i have a future. its all a joke. i have a secret life, which i will devote myself to after high school. i want a burrito ( Read more... )

i realized yesterday that i need to figure everything out. please dont make this hard. because i cant take that. im already slacking off in school. suprise, no. i want so many things. but i dont want to get them. last night i had a dream that all my clothes were way to big and you smiled at me.

i sorta wish i didn't have to live this year of my life. i know this year is going to be fun. i just don't want to have to deal with all the other people around me. well, most of them that is, because it's getting fucking annoying.i am completely indifferent towards school. as far as im concerned, its still summer ( Read more... )

today i have to leave the house and have fun. my list for today is to go see the wild one, snow cones, hair cut, some artsy activity. i don't care that school is starting. this summer really wasn't that great. at least now i can look forward to the weekends and college. there's nothing to look forward to in the summer, except maybe vacation. and ( Read more... )

this summer has not been real. to say the least. i cant imagine being in school, and that makes me happy. i know im not going to do anything over the next year except for putting leaves together, puttign sheets on things, painting trees, and painting faces. because thats what will get me into kansas city, or so says jonag, my admissions counselor ( Read more... )

i'm not prepared for my friends to leave. my initial reaction was to try and replace them. and i feel bad. because i can't replace them. i'm happy with so few of my relationships right now. it's really getting hard to pretend like everything is ok. it isnt. and i wish i knew what to say or do, but i dont ( Read more... )

tonight i introduced aggro cragg. they were great. youd think i wouldnt be upset still. wrong. it aint that easy. there is still fighting, yelling and a new level of ass from me still to come. am i ridiculous? yes, and i dont fucking care.

i've completely lost all care this summer. i don't care what happens next year or the year after that. i don't care what happens this week or even tonight. i feel like i could get so much accomplished. but i won't. some of you are getting really frustrating and annoying. and im sick of it. this summer has been one huge fucking distraction. and i ( Read more... )

zombies. dragon flies. kitties. faces. flowers. trees.
i will. harry potter. degrassi.