Let's make this last forever.
Here it comes, the time of year everyone loves, the time of year when I'm bitchy and depressed most of the time...just let me get past March....oh yeah 29 more school days until we get a week off...can you tell how much I adore school?
I definitely put off all of my homework and that was really idiotic of me, but I really could care less right now.
Last night me, Carrie, Sam, Sheri, and Sally went to Clutch...I ended up hooking up with this 23 year old guy named Eddie..What is with me and 23 year old guys? Is it my lucky number or something? That two of them in 2 weeks..lol
Right now..I feel very uneasy. I don't know about what..I just feel like..weird. I'm so eloquent.
This break was really great, I'd have to say. If there was one thing I would do differently--go see Steve..I KNOW! I KNOW! New Years Resolution number one is down the drain but I just can't get him out of my head. I just wish there was someone who could compare to how he made me feel..I've realized he is the only guy I've ever met that I could have fallen in love with.
"I wanna fall in love tonight..." please excuse my singing.
I miss last spring..god, how I miss last spring.
Gotta make the best of '03 though..It's the last year with my crew..and thank the Lord it's the last year with the evil spawn of Satan...by the way did anyone realize we have finals in like a week? Fuck me hard..I don't need all this education to get in the way of my social life.
I just wish that for once I could be free. Free of the memories that I can't seem to get past. Free of the stereotypes people have of me. Free to do what I want...and free to not do what I wished I didn't have to.
I need another vacation..lol
I have high hopes for the new year. I just need to get the past out of my mind. Maybe one day I'll forget about him...but today..he was working..and it's like, I went there on New Years Eve and I actually went inside and he wasn't working..and today..he wasn't and I couldn't bring myself to go inside.
I need a lobotomy.
..then again..if he really cared, he could have came and found me. Maybe it wasn't the phone at all..maybe he just didn't ever wanna see me again..ARGH..
We have to go to school tomorrow...I feel sick.
I deserve so much more than this.
I definitely put off all of my homework and that was really idiotic of me, but I really could care less right now.
Last night me, Carrie, Sam, Sheri, and Sally went to Clutch...I ended up hooking up with this 23 year old guy named Eddie..What is with me and 23 year old guys? Is it my lucky number or something? That two of them in 2 weeks..lol
Right now..I feel very uneasy. I don't know about what..I just feel like..weird. I'm so eloquent.
This break was really great, I'd have to say. If there was one thing I would do differently--go see Steve..I KNOW! I KNOW! New Years Resolution number one is down the drain but I just can't get him out of my head. I just wish there was someone who could compare to how he made me feel..I've realized he is the only guy I've ever met that I could have fallen in love with.
"I wanna fall in love tonight..." please excuse my singing.
I miss last spring..god, how I miss last spring.
Gotta make the best of '03 though..It's the last year with my crew..and thank the Lord it's the last year with the evil spawn of Satan...by the way did anyone realize we have finals in like a week? Fuck me hard..I don't need all this education to get in the way of my social life.
I just wish that for once I could be free. Free of the memories that I can't seem to get past. Free of the stereotypes people have of me. Free to do what I want...and free to not do what I wished I didn't have to.
I need another vacation..lol
I have high hopes for the new year. I just need to get the past out of my mind. Maybe one day I'll forget about him...but today..he was working..and it's like, I went there on New Years Eve and I actually went inside and he wasn't working..and today..he wasn't and I couldn't bring myself to go inside.
I need a lobotomy.
..then again..if he really cared, he could have came and found me. Maybe it wasn't the phone at all..maybe he just didn't ever wanna see me again..ARGH..
We have to go to school tomorrow...I feel sick.
I deserve so much more than this.