Life is waiting..for me
My New Year's Resolutions:
1. I will get over Steve. Now, this will take me time...but I am going to forget about that kid. I've realized something very important over break..He and I were not meant to be. As much as it kills me and as much as I wanted him to love me..to call me for God sakes, I obviously don't mean enough to him..he could have reached me if he wanted to. Steve was the only guy I've ever met in my life, I could have fallen in love with..and I think a little part of me did, though I won't admit it. I'll think about him of course--but my hopes now are for something bigger...
2. I will fall in love in 2003. Supposedly you can't force these things...but I will. However, I have to learn to believe in myself..I suppose I am not that fat and I'm not even that ugly, when I decide to do myself up. Confidence is something I lack, big time..and with gorgeous friends like mine, it's difficult to think well of myself, but I am going to try. I'm not saying I'll find my soul mate, but I will fall in love.
3. I will lose weight..or at least try. I need to start feeling good about myself again. I will start the working out thing as soon as finals are over.
4. I will learn to be happy. I have not really been happy for a long time. This charade I've been performing will soon become my real life...I need to learn to accept certain..inaliliable truths..like Steve and I will never see each other again.
5. I will keep at least one resolution..pretty self explanatory.
6. I will not form romantic attacthments to unavailable men, and that includes men who are single who just want booty.
Everything will be OK. I just need to leave the past behind. I need to focus on the future..Maybe one day I won't be so damn insecure.
1. I will get over Steve. Now, this will take me time...but I am going to forget about that kid. I've realized something very important over break..He and I were not meant to be. As much as it kills me and as much as I wanted him to love me..to call me for God sakes, I obviously don't mean enough to him..he could have reached me if he wanted to. Steve was the only guy I've ever met in my life, I could have fallen in love with..and I think a little part of me did, though I won't admit it. I'll think about him of course--but my hopes now are for something bigger...
2. I will fall in love in 2003. Supposedly you can't force these things...but I will. However, I have to learn to believe in myself..I suppose I am not that fat and I'm not even that ugly, when I decide to do myself up. Confidence is something I lack, big time..and with gorgeous friends like mine, it's difficult to think well of myself, but I am going to try. I'm not saying I'll find my soul mate, but I will fall in love.
3. I will lose weight..or at least try. I need to start feeling good about myself again. I will start the working out thing as soon as finals are over.
4. I will learn to be happy. I have not really been happy for a long time. This charade I've been performing will soon become my real life...I need to learn to accept certain..inaliliable truths..like Steve and I will never see each other again.
5. I will keep at least one resolution..pretty self explanatory.
6. I will not form romantic attacthments to unavailable men, and that includes men who are single who just want booty.
Everything will be OK. I just need to leave the past behind. I need to focus on the future..Maybe one day I won't be so damn insecure.