now I can relax, sort of
I spent the day at the midwife's house doing 9 prenatals. A few of them are women who should birth while I'm here so it was nice to meet them. Liz admitted that she was very apprehensive about taking on another student - she's had bad experiences before - but this afternoon when she was introducing me to a client she said she was "very impressed" with me, so that's good.
By the time 7 p.m. rolled around, I was desperate to get home, pump, eat, and put my feet up. I scarfed down a yogurt, a banana, and a salmon sandwich, pumped, and I'm in my pj's. I should brush my teeth and have a shower in case I get called out to a birth tonight but I'm wiped. I should also spend some time with my school books :-/ I'm sure I'll be asleep within an hour.
I talked with Kim for a few minutes today and everything was going well. My sweet husband called me right after he put Charlotte down for the night but she woke up just as soon as he got on the phone. I could hear her crying and even though I know she's fine, I just wanted to be there to comfort her, nurse her, and put her to bed with a tummy full of warm mommy milk and a warm kiss on the back of her head. I've only been gone two days but I have that crazy mama ache, that *need* to be with my baby. It's similar to how I felt when Abby died, wanting to hold my baby but not being able to, it's a crazy awful feeling. I have to constantly remind myself that it's only for two weeks and that I *will* get to hold my baby soon. When I talked to Julia she cried and said she wanted me to come home. As much as I love to hear their voices, texting and email are much easier to handle :-(
So, I'm fading fast and I want to be rested in case there is a birth, so off to bed with me VERY soon. An early bedtime will get me up early and then I can do some school work before I head over to do a couple more prenatals tomorrow morning. Then I should have the rest of the day "free"....unless I'm at a birth.
By the time 7 p.m. rolled around, I was desperate to get home, pump, eat, and put my feet up. I scarfed down a yogurt, a banana, and a salmon sandwich, pumped, and I'm in my pj's. I should brush my teeth and have a shower in case I get called out to a birth tonight but I'm wiped. I should also spend some time with my school books :-/ I'm sure I'll be asleep within an hour.
I talked with Kim for a few minutes today and everything was going well. My sweet husband called me right after he put Charlotte down for the night but she woke up just as soon as he got on the phone. I could hear her crying and even though I know she's fine, I just wanted to be there to comfort her, nurse her, and put her to bed with a tummy full of warm mommy milk and a warm kiss on the back of her head. I've only been gone two days but I have that crazy mama ache, that *need* to be with my baby. It's similar to how I felt when Abby died, wanting to hold my baby but not being able to, it's a crazy awful feeling. I have to constantly remind myself that it's only for two weeks and that I *will* get to hold my baby soon. When I talked to Julia she cried and said she wanted me to come home. As much as I love to hear their voices, texting and email are much easier to handle :-(
So, I'm fading fast and I want to be rested in case there is a birth, so off to bed with me VERY soon. An early bedtime will get me up early and then I can do some school work before I head over to do a couple more prenatals tomorrow morning. Then I should have the rest of the day "free"....unless I'm at a birth.