going to bed is a joke
Jack and the girls didn't get home from the city until between 11:30 and midnight. I had put Charlotte down to sleep around 11, but I didn't fall asleep until well after midnight - I was so tense and I couldn't fall asleep. She woke up at 1:50, I took her into bed to nurse her back to sleep and she wouldn't go back to sleep. She nursed, but she also scratched and pulled and pinched and "hmmmmm-ed" while she nursed. I left the room in a huff, Jack tried to settle her, then I finally took her and swaddled her again. I tried nursing her in the recliner but she was really vocal while she nursed and then she would pinch my nipple between her gums, so she's in her swing now, wide awake and grumbling.
And, Julia has been in our room *twice* in less than two hours. She's going to be a real gem tomorrow. I know she slept on the way home from the city, but she's not the type to sleep in past 7 or 8 am, and it's just me on duty tomorrow, as usual, and even Kim is gone babysitting from 8 am to 7 pm. Lucky, lucky me.
I am so ready to leave Jack with a few bottles of milk and just be gone for a day. Rent a hotel room, take a unisom, and not wake up for a very long time......not open my bra for several hours......read a book......maybe even do some school work. Who am I kidding? I'd just sleep.
Last night when Jack was on his way to the city, he phoned me and told me that the youth pastor's wife didn't go along with them (on the youth excursion) so she was at home too. She's a young, new mom who lives just down the street from me. Jack suggested we have supper together or something - he sounded so worried about me. Eventually I called her and we went out for chinese food together. The babies were both good (her dd is nearly 3 mos old), the food was good, and we talked about a lot of things. I felt better when I got home, but very tired. When Charlotte went down to sleep in her own bed, I prayed for at least three hours of solid sleep. I NEED some solid sleep. I NEED to have a good chunk of time where no one talks to me and no one touches me, at all.
Me thinks Jack has a Mr. Mom day coming to him, SOON. Either that, or mama's going to go nucking futs.
And, Julia has been in our room *twice* in less than two hours. She's going to be a real gem tomorrow. I know she slept on the way home from the city, but she's not the type to sleep in past 7 or 8 am, and it's just me on duty tomorrow, as usual, and even Kim is gone babysitting from 8 am to 7 pm. Lucky, lucky me.
I am so ready to leave Jack with a few bottles of milk and just be gone for a day. Rent a hotel room, take a unisom, and not wake up for a very long time......not open my bra for several hours......read a book......maybe even do some school work. Who am I kidding? I'd just sleep.
Last night when Jack was on his way to the city, he phoned me and told me that the youth pastor's wife didn't go along with them (on the youth excursion) so she was at home too. She's a young, new mom who lives just down the street from me. Jack suggested we have supper together or something - he sounded so worried about me. Eventually I called her and we went out for chinese food together. The babies were both good (her dd is nearly 3 mos old), the food was good, and we talked about a lot of things. I felt better when I got home, but very tired. When Charlotte went down to sleep in her own bed, I prayed for at least three hours of solid sleep. I NEED some solid sleep. I NEED to have a good chunk of time where no one talks to me and no one touches me, at all.
Me thinks Jack has a Mr. Mom day coming to him, SOON. Either that, or mama's going to go nucking futs.