December 5th 2011

[b_sexy]

two updates in one day, geez.

i hate everything.

i hate emotions, and wondering.
i hate this pain in my heart.
i hate missing my past.

i want to drive to Maria so badly,
i want to sit with her,
i want her to make everything okay again.

i miss her so much.
i miss the jokes, and the dancing.
i miss being stupid and careless.

i need to get my head on straight.
i need to focus.
i need to learn to cope.

this is pointless.
i should finish my project and go to sleep,
or atleast attempt to.