My mind never rests

[azryela]

For weeks, maybe months now, I've been having a terrible time falling asleep. I can lay here for hours. My mind just keeps going and going. And it always seems to be reliving the worst moments of my life. My regrets. My worries for the future. Second guessing every decision I've made. Decisions I am considering. Things I know I need to do but don't want to. Things I wish I could do but am too afraid to. There was a moment of time recently and I froze like a deer in the headlights. I've spent so much time going over it in my head. Regrets for freezing and worries that it wasn't what I thought it was. Even worries that it was. Then there is the stress at work. But that is a whole other post. I've tried all kinds of sleeping aids in the past. Either they don't work, don't work long enough or leave me dopey and groggy the next day. I'm running out of ideas and energy. I read and try to focus on other things but the worries just go right over them. People tell me not to think about it. Gee, I wish it was so easy.

Pardon my lack of paragraphs but I am typing this on my phone while laying in bed.