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she told me she doesnt hate me. well thats a relief. but then again, she also just told me to stfu and dont talk to her if im giving her shit. I really didnt think i was, i wasnt being a total dick to her or anything. I guess im a liar or something, so shrug. I hate it when she swears at me, i hate it when shes mad at me, i just wish she could see that i want to help her out. Im sure it was the same for her, when we were together, she didnt like it when i swore or got mad. I mean i always tried to keep it a minimum, but i dunno, i get mad easily for some retarded reason just for the stupidest things.
If she doesnt want me to talk to her, she should just tell me. I just need to know the truth now. If she hates me just tell me. If she loves me still just tell me. If she wants me to leave her alone for good just tell me. If she wants me to keep bothering her just tell me. Im not a mind reader, i need to know whats on your mind, what you want me to do, what i can do in order to help.
I really wish i could hear those 3 special words from her again. Im sure it would make me somewhat better. Hell, it could possibly even crack a smile for me. But shes over me, definitely over me. Shes moved on, and im left behind. She doesnt want anything from me, so ill just shut up, put my head down and let time do whatever to me.
Hopefully, and eventually i will start to be ok again.
If she doesnt want me to talk to her, she should just tell me. I just need to know the truth now. If she hates me just tell me. If she loves me still just tell me. If she wants me to leave her alone for good just tell me. If she wants me to keep bothering her just tell me. Im not a mind reader, i need to know whats on your mind, what you want me to do, what i can do in order to help.
I really wish i could hear those 3 special words from her again. Im sure it would make me somewhat better. Hell, it could possibly even crack a smile for me. But shes over me, definitely over me. Shes moved on, and im left behind. She doesnt want anything from me, so ill just shut up, put my head down and let time do whatever to me.
Hopefully, and eventually i will start to be ok again.