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I wish Pete and I wouldn't fight so much...
Today we argued about perfume, cufflinks, suits, stores and all that stuff to do with formals. I really shopuld learn to just let him do what he wants, after all if I want to be a trophy wife I have to learn to suck up to the man lol. I should have just not said anything, and let him go dressed wearing whatever. Looking crazy. And I would just disapper for half the night. I'm not gonna be associated with a person with weird taste.
It makes me sad when we fight. Makes it seem like we are heaps different. Then it makes me give up hope for 'us'.
At first I get mad and annoyed. So I just stop talking to him. Then I feel sad later. I feel guilty, and sad, and to blame. But it's not easy! There are so many people I get along with so well, why can't I get along with this stubborn narrowminded boy! *frustration*
*sigh* He's gone to a party tonight. Told me he's going to go and get very pissed. If he hooks up with any girls, I don't care HOW drunk he gets, I am ending it. I hope he doesn't turn into some alco. It's probably a phase for him atm.
Argh I'm feeling paranoid, and sad because I know the decisions i should make. (not good)
blegwejhghwekjbjwkighbgwe... going to try and forget him for a minute. WHAT THE FUCK DO I SAY TO HIM TOMORROW? WHEN AM I GOING TO SEE HIM NEXT?? WILL HE STILL BE MAD AT ME OR I HIM?? HOW AWKWARD WILL IT BE?? AND ARE WE GOING TO ARGUE ABOUT DISAGREEING ALL THE TIME TO TRY AND WORK THROUGH IT EVEN THOUGH WE WILL JUST END UP ARGUING MORE??? IS HE GOING TO PICK AT MY FAULTS LIKE HE DOES SOMETIMES?? WILL HE BE REALLY OPINIATED?? *ofcoursehewill*
just a feww questions goingthrough my head...
Today we argued about perfume, cufflinks, suits, stores and all that stuff to do with formals. I really shopuld learn to just let him do what he wants, after all if I want to be a trophy wife I have to learn to suck up to the man lol. I should have just not said anything, and let him go dressed wearing whatever. Looking crazy. And I would just disapper for half the night. I'm not gonna be associated with a person with weird taste.
It makes me sad when we fight. Makes it seem like we are heaps different. Then it makes me give up hope for 'us'.
At first I get mad and annoyed. So I just stop talking to him. Then I feel sad later. I feel guilty, and sad, and to blame. But it's not easy! There are so many people I get along with so well, why can't I get along with this stubborn narrowminded boy! *frustration*
*sigh* He's gone to a party tonight. Told me he's going to go and get very pissed. If he hooks up with any girls, I don't care HOW drunk he gets, I am ending it. I hope he doesn't turn into some alco. It's probably a phase for him atm.
Argh I'm feeling paranoid, and sad because I know the decisions i should make. (not good)
blegwejhghwekjbjwkighbgwe... going to try and forget him for a minute. WHAT THE FUCK DO I SAY TO HIM TOMORROW? WHEN AM I GOING TO SEE HIM NEXT?? WILL HE STILL BE MAD AT ME OR I HIM?? HOW AWKWARD WILL IT BE?? AND ARE WE GOING TO ARGUE ABOUT DISAGREEING ALL THE TIME TO TRY AND WORK THROUGH IT EVEN THOUGH WE WILL JUST END UP ARGUING MORE??? IS HE GOING TO PICK AT MY FAULTS LIKE HE DOES SOMETIMES?? WILL HE BE REALLY OPINIATED?? *ofcoursehewill*
just a feww questions goingthrough my head...