A Dictionary Definition
belong - 1. a. to be proper, appropriate or suitable.
b. to be in an appropriate situation or environment.
2. a. to be a member of a group, such as a club.
b. to fit into a group naturally.
3. to have in one's possession.
4. to be a part of something else.
I'm tired of not belonging. I've lived my life as a perpetual outsider. I never fully fit in with my parents; I love them and they love me, but there was always something missing. I never had that sense of groundedness, of permanence. I didn't have roots or a background; no biological identity. I feel like I've lived a dual life since childhood: there's the me that lived with my parents and the me that lived with my birth family and all my siblings. Now there's the me that is loyal to my parents and the me that's trying to fit in with my newly-discovered birth family and not feel like I'm betraying everything I've ever known.
When will I finally ever feel whole and settled? Or is that an impossibility?
b. to be in an appropriate situation or environment.
2. a. to be a member of a group, such as a club.
b. to fit into a group naturally.
3. to have in one's possession.
4. to be a part of something else.
I'm tired of not belonging. I've lived my life as a perpetual outsider. I never fully fit in with my parents; I love them and they love me, but there was always something missing. I never had that sense of groundedness, of permanence. I didn't have roots or a background; no biological identity. I feel like I've lived a dual life since childhood: there's the me that lived with my parents and the me that lived with my birth family and all my siblings. Now there's the me that is loyal to my parents and the me that's trying to fit in with my newly-discovered birth family and not feel like I'm betraying everything I've ever known.
When will I finally ever feel whole and settled? Or is that an impossibility?