I Am Better This Way
God, I'm such a drama kid. ^_^;
I know no one really cares. No one really bothers.
And it's nice that they pretend sometimes, but I can see it.
I can see through it very, very clearly.
It's unfortunate that I'm an attention whore, since we live in a world where you're all alone. :) Always, always. That's what I've learned, that's what I've felt. I've tried to change, I've tried to change others, but just as we were born alone, in the end, we die alone too.
I've cried for short times today, in front of people, in front of the computer talking to people, haha, even if they don't know it. I'm tired, and my head is really hurting from the sudden changes of weather/emotion (lol).
Trying to smile, for whatever it's worth. :) It's therapeutic...as if your problem really isn't that bad. Cigarettes sound nice, but my body hates me as is..
I love you all, whoever reads this. :D Truly, no matter what I say.
And even if you don't love me back, it's totally cool. I'm just glad you deal with my shit.
I know no one really cares. No one really bothers.
And it's nice that they pretend sometimes, but I can see it.
I can see through it very, very clearly.
It's unfortunate that I'm an attention whore, since we live in a world where you're all alone. :) Always, always. That's what I've learned, that's what I've felt. I've tried to change, I've tried to change others, but just as we were born alone, in the end, we die alone too.
I've cried for short times today, in front of people, in front of the computer talking to people, haha, even if they don't know it. I'm tired, and my head is really hurting from the sudden changes of weather/emotion (lol).
Trying to smile, for whatever it's worth. :) It's therapeutic...as if your problem really isn't that bad. Cigarettes sound nice, but my body hates me as is..
I love you all, whoever reads this. :D Truly, no matter what I say.
And even if you don't love me back, it's totally cool. I'm just glad you deal with my shit.