i want direction. i realized today the source of much of my angst. for the past god knows how many years i had a plan. in highschool i was gonna go to college. in college i was going to china. in china i was moving to nyc. now in nyc i have no direction, and it's killing me. i don't know if i'm staying here, or if i'll leave, if i leave for a long ( Read more... )